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Stay close with me...

2012-01-26T02:59:00.001+08:00

...please don't go. :)

Salam all. :)

Well, finally 25th has arrived. What's with 25th actually ? Eyra and Zura are on leave it is ! Unfortunately, I actually forgot that it's already 25th where I already plan to sleepover at Thirah's. Zzzzz. Sorry Bon, like seriously. Huhu. I'm busy like hell last weekend and CNY's holiday eve. I helped my PaMa to move things to the other side of our house. So tiring and I admit I got angry at times and stressed out. Ohh, shall not tell here why. Hehehe. :)

So today, we're actually at first planning to do kayak but we're not. Neither do going to picnic by the river. We're finally agree to go somewhere nearer. Lastly, me and Epa decided to take them all to One Utama. The main objective is to EAT. Yes, Eyra and Zura wanted to treat us for lunch. Thank you so much Miss Astro CSEs for the meatballs ! :p Meatballs ? Yes, we ate at Ikea and then going to OU. The main purpose is to have some softball moment but we're so unlucky that it's raining heavily in Bandar Utama. It's okay then, screw that battling cage, and thank you anyway because we got plenty much time to talk and talk from one topic to another topic non-stop. Haha. That's the power of kepochis - we never failed to have new topic and jumped quickly onto another topic in our conversation. One thing for sure; you have to catch up with what we're talking about because you'll never expect when are we going to change the topic. Huahahaha. I love you guys so so so much ! :) I really really love today and of course, I never get enough with you guys. Haha. ;) I had so much fun today, seriously I am ! :D

p/s: meet by chance.

**Update: I forgot to write about Shahir's presence yesterday ! Hahaha. :p Yes, he's with us, came to OU after work at around 6pm ? Haha. Planning to karaoke at first but then we only went to Murni to eat as Shahir's the monster seems very hungry that evening. Huahaha. :p

You'll never know what will happen next...

2012-01-23T02:34:00.000+08:00

...so, appreciate everything around you. The good or the bad one, they are all means everything for you later on. :)

Salam all. :)

The set of white finally arrived last Wednesday. Excited, of course. Finally I'm gonna have my own space, my own room. Alhamdulillah. Hee. :) Still haven't finish unpack all my things from the boxes. I love to pack things, but I HATE to unpack them back. Zzzzzzz. Furthermore, I have to put them in a new place. Huh~ It's hard you know to decide where should I put them. -.-

One fact about me; when I started to turnout my room, I'm gonna open up my box of memories (which got all my birthday cards and letters from my friends), I'm gonna read them one by one, smiling and at the same time tears filled my eyes. I miss them dearly. I thought that it's only me noticed that but suddenly my baby sister came and tell me, "Tahu tak Kak ? Setiap kali Akak kemas bilik mesti Akak bukak balik satu-satu surat tu baca". Yes, I am sentimental like that. I even keep the candy/chocolate wrappers in that box. Haha. Everything got their own story. And Alhamdulillah, I still remember them clearly. ;)

Dear my friend no matter where you are now and what you are doing, hopefully you are all in a good condition and living a good life, insyaAllah. :) I may rarely contacting you these days but I always pray for the best to all of you. I always miss you all but I have to admit that we're all have our own life, our own commitment now. As time goes by, people's keep changing, I might changed too. ;)

p/s: I've done my best !

Mungkin sudah suratan kita...

2012-01-18T02:31:00.002+08:00

...terpisah sebegini saja, pasti di suatu hari nanti, ku jejak bahagia - Lara Lagi (Adira)

Salam semua. :)

Entah kenapa hati rasa mahu menangis semahunya tapi akal dan minda menghalang, katanya, tidak perlu tangisi. :) Maka sehingga ke saat ini, saya masih manahan rasa. Apa yang tidak kena, saya sendiri tidak temui jawapannya. Cuba diselam sedalamnya hati tapi masih tidak dijumpai. Maka, dibiarlah ia begitu sahaja tanpa sebarang jawapan.

Bergenang air mata melihat kebahagiaan orang lain, bukan sedih, tapi turut merasa bahagia bersama.
Bergenang air mata melihat kesedihan orang lain, memandang diri sendiri, ada yang lebih terseksa dari diri ini.
Saya bersyukur, masih punya kebahagiaan dan kesedihan saya sendiri, bersyukur masih punya peluang untuk merasai semua ini. Alhamdulillah. :)
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Untuk seorang rakan,
Saya seakan pernah berada dalam situasi anda, dan juga seakan telah melakukan beberapa perkara yang anda sedang lakukan sekarang. Percayalah, apa yang anda sedang lakukan sekarang, mengeruhkan lagi keadaan hubungan yang anda cuba kekalkan. Kalau boleh saya tidak mahu anda rasa menyesal di kemudian hari. Sekurang-kurangnya, bersyukurlah, dia masih mahu menghubungi, dia masih melayan. Jangan mendesak, jangan. Jangan mengungkit, jangan. Itupun sekiranya awak masih sayangkan hubungan yang kini bergelar "kawan" dan bukannya "kekasih". Berada dalam situasi sekarang, ternyata, saya menyesal dengan tindakan-tindakan saya dahulu. Dia bukan lagi seorang yang saya masih hubungi. Bukan lagi dan ia bukanlah permintaan saya. Ia berlaku dek situasi yang mendesak kami; tanpa saya relai. Saya pasti, anda juga tidak mahu ia terjadi begitu. Biarkan ia berlalu. Biarkan semua ini pergi dari sisi awak sedikit demi sedikit. Jangan biasakan diri anda hubungi dia sepertimana anda lakukan sebelum ini kerana anda tidak mahu bergantung pada dia lagi dan memberi harapan pada diri anda terhadap dia. Bangkitlah. Saya tahu, situasi kita tidak akan pernah sama, cukup berbeza. Tapi saya bersyukur melihat anda dan dia berterus-terang pada satu sama lain, berbincang bersama membuat keputusan yang pahit untuk ditelan ini. Terimalah kenyataan andai anda bukan untuk dia. Semakin anda menyakiti hati dia, semakin anda menyakiti diri anda sendiri.

p/s: tak suka filem Ombak Rindu tapi suka soundtrack Ombak Rindu. :)

It looks plain and boring...

2012-01-17T05:22:00.001+08:00

...for you, but it's just so colourful to me. :)

Salam all. :)

First entry for 2012. Sorry for the late as I don't have laptop to post new entry (is this really an excuse ? lol). Happy new year everyone ! :)

If on the first day of 2011 I spent with my sister and her friends in Johor Bharu/Singapore. This year, in 2012, I spent my first day with my beloved bestfriends. Alhamdulillah. A good start of 2012, indeed ! :)

As late as 11pm of 31st December 2011, an ad hoc planning have been made by me and Epa. We decided to go to Port Dickson. Just feel like going to walk at the beach and spending the day with them. With 34 missed calls (correct me please, Shahir. I don't really remember. Haha.) I've made to wake Shahir up, 2-3 messages without any reply that I decided to call his home then, finally he answered the phone after 2 minutes of waiting, the plan is going on ! We won't go if he's not, that's for sure. :)

First thing first, breakfasttt ! Well, not really breakfast, it's our lunch ! Haha. Also with Shahir's Bihun.

He's lying there, sleeping while listening to his Ipod by the time we walked at the beach.

So hot and ice cream is the best thing you want to have at that time. Haha. :)

She search seashell at the seashore and the seashell that she search is seashell shore. Haha !

With the banana boat.

Walked by the seashore.

Sharp !

Since I'm the one who take the picture, so I only can do that. A playboy logo ? LOL.

Saranghaeeee !

She does look feminine in this picture, isn't she ? :)

65kilos meet the 40kilos. The overweight and the underweight. :p

Putera lilin. Hahaha.

At the Avillion, PD swimming pool. :p

Thirah using the batuk.

Something, something:

Do you remember a peribahasa that sounds like this "Bagai melepas batuk di tangga". Batuk in that phrase means the thing in the picture above and not actually cough. I used to think before that batuk in that phrase refer to cough, like seriously. -.-"

US. :)

Our day not ended just like that. We stopped by at Bangi from PD, having some karaoke session with Loco and Yaya at MyPopAvenue. Shahir excluded as he being so emotional that evening and went to the cyber cafe and SLEEP. Zzzz. Hahaha. You're lucky Shahir as I don't have mood to talk about that here. Haha.

By 10pm I already home. And Mama back from Penang that evening. Splendid day with them. Alhamdulillah. :)

p/s: he's near, I can feel it.

It's time waves goodbye...

2011-12-31T23:55:00.000+08:00

...to 2011 and welcoming 2012. :)

*By the time I posted this, It's 5 minutes before 00:00. :)

Salam all. :)

The last post for 2011. Minutes to 2012...I really need to type faster now. Haha.
Alhamdulillah, my 2011 went well, very well until now, the time I'm typing this. :)
I've started my 2011 at Singapore. Yes I Am ! Celebrated my new year at Marina Bay. Never thought I'm gonna did that. Haha. Well, celebrating new year never be my thing. My celebration at Marina Bay was my second time. My first time was in 2009 (if I'm not mistaken) in One Utama along with my relatives from Padang, Indonesia. :)
Tonight, I choose not to go anywhere, plus, I know that Papa won't let me out. Haha. No one's at home except me and Papa. Mama and Baby, of course, still in Penang and will coming back home tomorrow. Yes, tomorrow. YEAYYY ! (yeay that finally I have someone to talk to when I wake up from my sleep). Ayong's going out - countdown, Angah - I'm not sure and Ayang was on her way back to KL from Ipoh.
I'm at home, keep changing the tv channel and finally stuck at TV3 watching Aduh Sayang with Epa. With Epa doesn't mean she's right next to me but we're skype-ing while watching it. Haha. Technology. :p

Hello 2012, goodbye 2011.
I hope for a better life in 2012. Get a job and earn my own money. Oh, and also this year I hope, insyaAllah, to have someone special in my life. :)
And I really hope that I am strong enough to reduce my 15kg fat or at least, 10kg. Haha. Oh my, I miss my old weight. Hopefully we'll meet again next year, in 2012.
Lastly, I really hope my family will be in good health and everything that we do will get His blessed. Amin.

p/s: I love you SecretEmotion. You help me a lot to reminisce my 2011 and the year before. :)

2011 watched me at the top of the mountain...

2011-12-30T02:21:00.000+08:00

...and fall so many times during climb it up. Well, that's life isn't it ? :)

8 best of my 2011.

1. Graduation

Of course this will be on top of the list ! After 3 years struggling in studies with a pair of goldfish eyes, I got the degree. Alhamdulillah. Sad but true, I still miss every moment I had in UKM. I miss to have assignments and all. Busy, freaking tired but still, that's the best time you gonna miss so bad. I don't mean to brag but I'm proud of myself that I am a degree holder by the age of 21. Never thought that it will be that fast. Because of PTS, I've skipped a year of my studies in primary and 3 years duration of degree makes it into reality. Alhamdulillah. Thanks everyone for the support especially my parents of course and best friends. :)

2. Thesis

One and a half semester means everything. Changing the supervisors (from Dr. Mun to Dr. Kuik), bring out the new title (from Pakistan to ACFTA), done 5 version of chapter one and all. Fuhhh. So fucking tired. T_T Even I didn't get the highest grade and only got a B+. But the experience I had, worth everything. The last minutes work shows it all. I've spoiled my last 2 chapter in my thesis. Regret ? Quite. But the truth is, I'm happy that I finally finished it ! Alhamdulillah. :)

3. Admitted to hospital

This is the first time I've admitted to hospital. Thank you everyone for all the concerns. Seriously, I'm glad to have you all by my side during that time. Wait for me at the hospital for hours until the doctor finally decide to put me in the ward. Keep vomiting, the head spinning like crazy. I'm so weak at that time. :/
If you guys wanna know, I'm so afraid there in the third class ward. All alone sleeping at the ward with other patients. For me, that's really really scary. The way they stare at me, even if I can barely see them due to my blur vision (no spectacles and yes there's something wrong with my visions at that time), I know they are staring at me. Plus, the hospital's haunted story keep playing in my mind. Haihhhh. -.-"
I lose my appetite but you guys brought me Bubur McD and my clothes as well. :) And the non-stop messages asking for my condition. You guys are the best. *crying*
And I'm so sorry for Mama and Papa as my friends didn't inform about me that night. Most probably, I might do the same too. Don't know whether to call or not to call. I beg for an apology on behalf of my friends.
After all, my health is getting good day by day. Alhamdulillah, until now, the pain never comes back. Pray for my health you guys. :)

4. Travel/Holiday

I actually didn't expect to go anywhere in 2011. Don't have budget for that. BUT, well hey, 2011 watched me stepped into Singapore for two times ! Hahaha. Didn't expect eh ? -.-" The first time with Ayang's UKM's friends and the second time was also with Ayang but along with Mama and Ayang's colleague. Heeee. Both were great and I enjoy every single day I was there. Weehooo ! But still, I haven't got a chance to enter the Universal Studios Singapore. Maybe 2012 ? Who knows ? :p
Apart from that, I also went to Kuching, Sarawak like finally ! Haha. I've missed my chance to go to Sabah end of last year but this year I managed to go to Kuching. Alhamdulillah for the rezeki. :)

5. Had fun with my IR mates. Kayak-ing for the very first time in my life and fell into one of Putrajaya's lakes. At Wetland to be precise. Haha. Cycling at Taman Botani. Wall climbing at Putrajaya Challenges Park and sprained my ankle. LOL.

6. For the first time Mama allowed me to go somewhere out of KL-Selangor for few days with my friends. Yeay ! And that would be Ipoh with Epa and FaThirah. Thanks Mama. :D

7. Helping out friends to something, something and it turns out well, very well actually. Congratulations Palie and Epa ! Love you guys much. 2012 and I hope you guys move into another phase eh ? :p

8. Watched football match live at the stadium for the first time. Watching Malaysia VS Arsenal with free passes from MixFM. And not to forget, Malaysia VS Singapore. :D

p/s: Hope 2012 will be great. Amin. :)

As long as you love me...

2011-12-30T01:15:00.003+08:00

...nothing in this world could hurt me - #TentangDhia

Salam all. :)

29th of December and finally #TentangDhia come to an end. Quite a frustrated ending for some people but for me, I am satisfied. :) Well well, I know some people keep condemning Malay drama. They said the director copy this and that from that Hollywood movies, the scenario is too lame, blablabla. I'm not saying that they right, neither do wrong. Everyone got their own point of view. So, this is my point of view. No offense, okay ?

1. The used of black magic
The first time black magic is used in #TentangDhia, people started to get annoyed. I know, the followers of that drama tweet-ed about that much.
"Inilah drama Melayu, ada je lah nak guna sihir lah apa lah."
"Dah start sihir-sihir bagai, boring ah. Entah pape."
Correct me if I'm wrong. But for me, the used of black magic in #TentangDhia shows us the reality in our society, now. You can say that it's nonsense but people nowadays keep using black magic to get what they want, especially those who got lacks of knowledge in Islam. Everyone knows that using black magic is Syirik. But we can deny that in our society right ? So, the used of black magic in #TentangDhia is relevant.

2. The main actor/actress
To be true, I'm interested to watch #TentangDhia at the first place because of Nora Danish and Adi Putra. I'm not their fans but I got an instinct that they will make a great couple in that drama. It's true isn't it ? I never failed myself to watch them everyday. If I didn't manage to watch it at 7pm, I will catch them up at @TontonMY. For me, they really makes #TentangDhia alive. And also credit to Melly, Azmi, Raffi, Ku Salmi and Zetty as the supporting casts. I'm sorry to Tasha Shila (Rose) fans. For me she looks fake. I don't feel her like I did to everyone in that drama. Again, you're so not good in acting, Tasha. Opps. Frankly speaking, I don't like her in any drama too, sorry to say but I don't really like Malaysians new artiste nowadays. They seems too fake. Out of topic, I know. Overall, well done everyone in #TentangDhia except Tasha. Harharhar.

Okay. That's two point I wanna bring up because that's the only thing that bother me much. Haha.

About the ending. Yes, I agree that the director should tell us about what happen to Ku Salmi as she's being so evil in that drama. She should get some punishment, or at least she penitent of what she has done to Dhia and her family at the ending. But no, the director didn't tell us what happen to her -- that makes the follower became disappointed. Frustrated I am? Yes, a bit.
*at some point I think the director just leave it to us to guess what happens to Ku Salmi. I think everyone knows what will happen to someone like her, if she doesn't penitent. :)

But at least, Dhia got her real happiness before she's gone to meet her Creator. He got Zikir by her side, Zikir helps her to recite kalimah syahadah before her heart stops beating. That makes she happy isn't it ? For me, she does happy, at least minutes before she died. :)

#TentangDhia is a great ending of 2011 for Malay drama lovers, I hope. For me, it is. Again, everyone got their point of view. You may disagree with me but it's only my opinion.

See. #TentangDhia is trending Worldwide for a while right after the drama's end. It's phenomenal ! And until now, people haven't stop tweeting about that drama. Haha. :)

Oh, one thing. It's only a drama. Don't take it too serious. You know what I mean. You are matured enough to think. :)

* I admit that I'm crying watch the ending. :/
* #TentangDhia got so many good quotes to be remember. :)

p/s: Gemersik Kalbu will replace #TentangDhia starting next Monday. Oh, I'm not going to watch. I don't fancy Ayu Raudhah like everyone does. Zzzz.

I love you...

2011-12-27T21:47:00.000+08:00

...Dexter, but I just don't like you anymore - One Day.

Salam all. :)

Last few days Qilah posted a movie trailer on my Facebook's wall. I can't wait another minute to download the movie, I google-d and yes, got the link to download. Yeay ! Please watch it below, the trailer. :)

One Day, released in August 2011.

I wanted to give the review of the film but Qilah already put it in her blog. Hee. So read it here. So many emotions been played when I watch the movie. And this is my review to Qilah;

Haha. That's it. And ohhh, if you read in that picture about Qilah's previous post about this one lady, the situation she's been through (basically) is almost the same like the movie, I mean when they didn't get together at the first place, but back together few years later and after that her partner died. :/

Hear it here;

http://pmd.mediaprima.com.my.edgesuite.net/u/hotfm/amkrew/audio/bestbit/111220_dilema.mp3

I know, I'm just sensitive like that. Can easily touched for something like this. Zzzzzz~

Anyway, everyone got their own opinion. Mine just like Qilah. So sad that we can't even cry, speechless. Hmm hmm. Watch it and you can share your opinion here about that film if you don't mind. :)

p/s: to Dexter - so many years wasted, waiting for the right time, when you're ready, and when it's time, God takes her from you. :/

A successful marriage requires falling in love many times...

2011-12-26T03:35:00.001+08:00

...but always with the same person - Germaine Greer. :)

Salam all. :)

First and foremost,

HAPPY 28th ANNIVERSARY PapaMama on 24th of December !

I admit that I'm not good in giving any speech. And of course, words can't even express the feelings I have inside towards them. Only Allah knows how much I appreciate His precious gifts to me. I think it's enough with this word;

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah. :)

Secondly,

After almost 5-6 years, I finally met Nisamat, an old friend since primary school. The last time I saw her, hmm, when I'm in form 4 or form 5, I couldn't recall. Alhamdulillah, we manage to meet each other with an ad-hoc planning. Haha. ;) Seriously I had fun with you guys that Friday. Ca and Nisa, thank you for agreeing to accompany me that evening. Heee. :)

p/s: give and take.

You say it best...

2011-12-21T03:00:00.000+08:00

...when you say nothing at all. :)

Salam all. :)

I got a text message from someone yesterday evening. A simple message but yet able to makes me cry. Seriously, I can feel how she feels right now. Sorry yang, I know that I'm not a good adviser for you. I feel bad for that. :/

Dear you,
Thank you for understand, thank you for taking care in silence. Even if you didn't say anything, I already know that you do yang. And this evening when you told me in that message, I can't help myself but crying. How you respect me by not saying anything. :) I miss the old times when we spend our time in ym/skype and share our stories. Seriously I do. Times brought us till this far and I'm sorry that I'm not there when you're at the bottom of the wheel. :(
And today when you text-ed me, I can't explain what are the feelings I have inside. I am happy but at the same time I feel bad for not being there all these while. Thank you for trusting me to hear all that. I wish I can help you yang. Be strong, I know you always do. InsyaAllah, He will leads you to the right path. Just have faith, okay ? :) I just want you to know, I always have my shoulders for you to lend on. I'm happy when you're happy. And I am sad, when you are too. Take care my dear. InsyaAllah He will show us the way. For you and me. Amin. :)
You're one of my precious friends that really understands me well, that able to feel me deeply. Alhamdulillah, I feel blessed for having you in my life. :)
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Had a phone call with Shahir for almost half an hour. Half an hour and it never feels enough to catch things up. I know I've been missing my kepochis everyday. We got too many things to be shared.
Please please please, open table please..............................! =.=

Spamming Abe's wall post using that blue words seriously funny and I found that really annoying actually. Haha. Sorry Abe ! I can't even left my laptop for seconds, they were replying like 2,3,4 comments in one second. Fuhhh. Hahaha. Jauh di mata, dekat di hati, dekat di FB. :)

Love you guys very very much for making my day. :)

P/s: awesome friends are awesome. Alhamdulillah. :)

The happiness we had, the gloominess between us...

2011-12-19T03:08:00.000+08:00

...we're just an ordinary family to face all that. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for rewarding me such a beautiful family.

Salam all. :)

Last few days, my sister posted something on her Facebook status. Truthfully, I feel like crying when I read it. To watch my baby sister's growing. She's 15 already. Isn't that just so fast. She's big now, real BIG I must say. Bigger than me, physically. Haha. :p No, I'm not going to talk about that. But it's about the elders.

We're close when we were small but as time goes by, I can see a distance between us all. But Allah is the Almighty, He brought us back together when we enter the age of 20s. We're getting closer each day without we're realizing it. :)

There's one time, I feel terribly sad. To think that we're not going to be the same again when we're all got our own family. Not going to be same again, I mean, got another commitment to be focus on. Seeing you guys with the one you love. I'm sincerely happy but at the same time, I feel like hating. Hate the fact that I have to let go you guys someday. Selfish I am. But it's life, I have to admit it. I could be the happiest person to see you guys entering the marriage life but I could also be the saddest person to let you guys go. :( *crying deep down inside*

Wanted to say more, but couldn't help myself feel like crying. I just can't continue this entry. :/

p/s: I love them with all my heart.

I'm not a good cook...

2011-12-19T01:20:00.002+08:00

...but at least I'm trying to make everyone pleasantly well-fed with what I cook. :)

Salam all. :)

It spoil my mood to online when my Mr.ASUS's charger already cannot be used. *crying* So, I use my sister's laptop for the time being. I wanted to update about Kuching's but all the pictures were in Mr.ASUS. T_T Never mind then, I'll do it later, when I buy the new charger -- when ? Still can't figure it out yet. :p It will be in my things-to-buy-desperately list now. T_T

I've been craving for Cinnabon for months already. Hate the fact that Cinnabon is only available at certain places in Malaysia. The nearest kiosk to my house is in One Utama. Tskk. So lazy to drive there. So lazy to going out. Just so lazyyyyyyyyyyy. I almost buy it last month at The Mall. Something just stop me from doing so -- money. LOL. If I buy it at that time, it will left me not more than 10 bucks in my purse. *sigh*

Due to the laziness to going out, due to the craving-ness, I finally decided to make it by myself. A cinnamon rolls. I have to admit that I'm not good in this. Haha. The truth is I'm better in cooking. :p

I present you, my first attempt at Cinnamon Rolls.

I think it looks good in this picture. Just don't judge a book by its cover, they said. The taste is just plain. LOL.

"The dough is okay but somehow I feel resentful, waiting for it to be sweet." - Ayang
"You need to add more sugar. But it's a good try, better than never." - Papa

Haha. Tell you already, I'm not good in it. Let's just leave it to Ayang. She's good in it. I'm going to cook only. Surrender for now -- really ? :p

Since Mama in Penang (for almost 3 weeks already), I take over the kitchen. By 5pm I must already be in the kitchen to cook for dinner. Now I already know how Mama feels everyday when she's already out of idea what to cook for dinner. Haha. Stress, I tell you ! T_T And somehow I feel tired because I'm all alone in the kitchen do all the things needed.

But every bad feelings just went away when I saw my dad and my siblings enjoy eating even if I know it doesn't taste as good as Mama's. Alhamdulillah, it just a great feelings after all. To see everyone enjoying it. :)

p/s: Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akbar. :)

Leaving your past...

2011-12-17T02:53:00.000+08:00

...but not live in your past. :)

Salam all. :)

Some said, I'm still living in the past. I need to make this things clear. Well, all you can see that I'm not get over it yet. Oh come on.

There's huge different between "being left with obvious reason" and "being left with no absolute reason".
You know what I mean here. It is hard as you will keep asking yourself of what is actually wrong. Zzzzz. Screw that ! If I am still live in my past, I'm not moving on right now. I will still mourn over what had happened to us. I will still hoping. The truth is, I'm not hoping for anything. Just regret that we ended terribly. That's all. It takes me quite a long time to heal. But alhamdulillah, I'm getting better everyday with His wills. :)

There is also huge different between "live in the past" and "reminiscent the past".
There is one time where you are all alone and you feel the emptiness, for sure, some good/bad memories will suddenly popped up in your head. At that time, you feel like crying, you need someone to lend their shoulder to you.

The past, where it makes us to be more matured. It's you to decide which path would you choose, positively or negatively. It's you to decide whether to still make the same mistake or not. It's all on you. I repeat, ON YOU.

A friend of mine once said, "if you are given an option either to be happy or sad, choose to be happy."
I've chose mine, you ? :)

p/s: no hard feelings.

If you're visiting somewhere out of your place...

2011-12-14T21:18:00.000+08:00

...take a picture with the famous landmark of that place to show that you're really there, they said. Eh ? Haha. :p

Kuching Day #2

Salam all. :)

Seems that today's not going to be my wordless Wednesday. :p Second post for today, still on the same story. Hehe. :)

On the second day in Kuching, we went to Kuching Cultural Village (KCV). Since we stayed at the Kuching City, so it takes us almost an hour to be there. Ohhh, we have to pay RM60 per person to enter the KCV. For me, the entrance fee is a bit too high to compare of what they have inside. They only have special price for Sarawakians. Just my two cents; isn't that supposed not only for Sarawakians, but for Malaysians too ? Hmm hmm ?

Never mind then, we just enjoying ourselves in there. Taking pictures. :)

The KCV entrance.

Errr. Which way first ? Hmm hmm.

PapaMama. :)

Bidayuh Longhouse.

Iban Longhouse.

Penan Hut.

Orang Ulu Longhouse.

"I don't want be an Orang Ulu," said Papa while pointing his finger to Mama. LOL.

Orang Cina Farm House.

Melayu House.

Melanau Tall House.

The Pagoda.

The one and only family photo in Kuching. :p

She's making the kain pua kumbu. Nice eh ?

I forgot the name of it.

At certain angle, it looks nice. But at certain angle, it's just disgusting. -.-

Black Pepper. :)

The Hornbill at Damai Central.

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Back from KCV, rest for a while in the hotel room and then we walked around looking for the cat monument. :)

I give you my picture with the first cat monument. Haha.

The second cat monument.

The third and the last one. :)

p/s: Lets Sabah next ? :p

To be with your family...

2011-12-14T01:41:00.000+08:00

...isn't that the best moment in your life ? :)

Kuching Day #1

Salam all. :)

Last November I went to Kuching, Sarawak (finally !) with my parents and my baby sister. A short vacation I might say. Supposed that Ayang's going together with us but sadly to say, her boss didn't approved her leave. So, only four of us are going. Alhamdulillah, safely arrived there around 3.30pm even if the flight delayed for almost an hour.

Do you know what makes me more excited there in Kuching ? Qilah was there too with her parents. But unfortunately I only manage to meet her in Kuching International Airport. We're taking the same flight to Kuala Lumpur ! Do you know that she lives in Setiawangsa and that isn't thattttt far from Selayang. But at Kuching, we meet. Subhanallah, what a coincidence. :)

The first photo taken in Kuching. In front of Kuching waterfront. See the building behind ? We're staying there throughout our 3 nights in Kuching. Harbour View Hotel. :)

Our first time ride in Kuching water taxi or bot tambang. Look at Mama's face. Cuak !

The fare is only 50 cents.

Keringat tua.

Papa's first food in Kuching; Nasi Goreng Terubuk Masin. The sambal taste quite good I tell you. :D

A gazebo in front of Kuching Waterfront. Sorry that the picture is quite slant to the right. -.-" But I do love the lighting. :)

One of Kuching's new attraction; State Legislative Assembly Building. Just opened in 2009. :)

The Astana; the official residence of Yang diPertua Negeri Sarawak.

Was built in 1870 by Charles Brooke as a wedding gift to his wife. :)

p/s: before you sleep, forgive yourself, forgive everyone and hoping that they will forgive you too. :)

All our dreams can come true...

2011-12-12T22:59:00.002+08:00

...if we have the courage to pursue them - Walt Disney. :)

Salam all. :)

These are my lifetime wishlist (will update from time to time);

People out there are being crazy with cars. Lambo this, Lambo that. Bentley this, Bentley that. Believe me, it's hard for me to like any of them. As long as I have one (note: Cik Kelly) to bring me here and there, I'm satisfied enough. But this one, seriously it caught my eyes. Porsche Cayenne S. Why you're so adorable ? T_T To own it, might not possible for me. I can get two houses for one of it. For a lifetime investment, I think to buy a house is more valuable. So, my wish is to be in that car for hours, to drive it. Can I can I can I ? -.-"

I've been wanting to riding in a helicopter since I was a kid. I don't know why but it must be fun to be in it. To see the city from the sky. It must be sooo beautiful. Subhanallah; I already can imagined it. One day, insyaAllah, one day. :)

No measure of time with you will be long enough...

2011-12-08T11:25:00.001+08:00

...but let's start with forever - Edward Cullen. :)

Salam all. :)

If you're my loyal reader, you will know that I'm a Twilight Saga fan. The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part I came out on 24th November in Malaysia, I actually frustrated that I won't be able to watch the movie on the first day of screening -- flight to Kuching, Sarawak that 24th ! Hmm hmm. So I try to go through the official website of Malaysia's radio stations and filling the form to get free premiere screening ticket of Breaking Dawn on 23rd of November. Lucky me, Alhamdulillah, I got 4 tickets for premiere screening of Breaking Dawn from SinarFM. Yeay ! Thank you SinarFM ! :D

4 tickets and I brought along my baby sister, Zarifah and Nazurah to watch it with me. Hee. :)

I don't want to put any review here, read it at IMDB yourself. Please. :)

Something, something;

I feel so touched when Bella and Edward finally married. Hehe. Almost cry ! :p
I love Bella Swan wedding dress. For me, it is just soooo beautiful !

(source: google image)

The part when Bella became a vampire; why did Bella's boobs pops like that ? LOL.
Can I have my honeymoon like Edward and Bella ? LOL. Not on the post-first-night of Bella's. The place, I mean. Hehe. :p

By the way, I know that peoples are condemning this Twilight Saga. But please do respect others interest. They might not like yours anyway. Then why should you being so rude saying this and that about what they like. Stop being like a kid. Everyone got their own obsession. Respect each others and they will do the same to you. Got it, baby ?

p/s: que sera sera.

Wordless Wednesday #2.

2011-12-07T13:41:00.001+08:00

Istighfar as much as you can...

2011-11-30T15:41:00.001+08:00

...it will makes you feel much much better whenever you feel bad. :)

Salam all. :/

Yes. I feel bad today. Seriously, can someone drag me into the real world ? I'm tired to fight with myself. :/
Crying. All over again. Can someone please slap me, wake me up from this bad dream ? I need someone to talk to. I need someone to love me more than I love myself. I feel...lonely. I feel...empty. Ya Allah........ :(

p/s: another one step behind.

A good friend knows all your best stories...

2011-11-30T03:04:00.001+08:00

...BUT a best friend has lived them with you. :)

Salam all. :)

As I already told you in my last 2 entries, 19th of November was Zarifah's birthday. So, on 20th, she invites me to come over to her house for an afternoon tea (or whatever they call it) to celebrate her birthday together with Abang Ngah and Abang Lang. Since I went to Kak Widad's reception with Caca, so I dragged her along to Gombak Ria. Hehe. Glad that I finally made it to introduce Ca to my UKM's friends and vice versa. :)

Less talk, more photos mode: ON. :p

Early comers -- help Mama Noriah at the kitchen. Me and Ca made the acar sedap ! Hehe.

This is what we call, "drinking while diving". LOL.

Eating time !!! XD

Thanks Ca for spending your time with us. Hehe. :)

Shahir with Epa. Hehe.

Shifana and Arissa in pink !

The pink family with Kaklong. Haha.

Focus on Eyra's hijab.

Zoom in !!! Hahaha. Sorry Eyra ! :p

And...finally ! Us with Shifana and Arissa. :)

Just being so excited. Haha.

Some of the Kepochis.

Right before I went home. :)

Their cake; AbangLang 8/11, AbangNgah 11/11 and Zarifah 19/11. Happy birthday November babies ! :)

I don't know what so funny that makes me laugh like that. LOL.

Happy birthday !!!

From left; AbangNgah, Zarifah and AbangLang.

Ca and I went back home earlier than the others. I didn't manage to meet FaThirah as she arrived late. Really late. Haha. =.= Whatever it is, I'm having so much fun that evening with all of them. Love you guys with all my heart. :)

p/s: Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah for this precious gift; my awesome friends. :)

Appreciate everything you have, be thankful...

2011-11-30T00:01:00.001+08:00

...zindagi na milegi dobara. :)

Salam all. :)

Wow. It's already the last day of November 2011. So fast and I didn't realize that I have been unemployed for almost 6 months already. Hoho. T_T

I actually wanted to talk about this Hindi movie, Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara (ZNMD) or in English it means You Don't Get a Life Second Time (credit: wikipedia). Since we got a year of free Astro Box Office (ABO) channel. Why don't we utilize it to the max. LOL. I've watched the movie several times and yes, I have fall in love with this movie, the poems and the storyline Just like three idiots, this movie also revolves about friendship. 8.0/10 votes in IMDB. You tell me whether the movie is great or not. :) Oh sorry, you're not going to find any synopsis here in my blog. I'm sucks in summarizing the plot. Haha. -.-"

As I stated earlier, I love the poems. There's 4 poems in this movie made by Javed Akhtar, the father of Farhan Akhtar (acting as Imraan in ZNMD).

These are the poems (translated version);

Poem #1

There is a matter that has almost come to my lips
This is evident in my eyes
Sometimes from you, sometimes from me
They ask for words
To take their shape and come to my lips
And to be embraced by my voice
But this matter

Is a feeling…only a feeling
Floating in air like fragrance
Fragrance becomes its voice
That you know of
That i know of
It’s not hidden from the world
Don’t know what kind of secret is this

Poem #2
Every time the cloud of pain loomed
A tear filled my eyes
When this lonely heart was scared
I told my heart ‘Why do you cry for such reason? This happens everywhere in this world’
These dark lonely times, time has distributed them to all.
Some sadness is part of everyone’s story,
Some sunshine is a part of everyone’s life
Your eyes are damp for no reason
Every second is a new season
Why do you waste your time over such matters
Why do you cry I asked my heart

Poem #3
he moment flows by like molten sapphire
Deep Blue silences
No Earth below
No Sky above
The rustling branches and leaves
Saying that only you are here
Only me
My breath
My heartbeat
Such Depth like this
Such Loneliness like this
And me only me
I now believe I exist

Poem #4
If you carry impatience in your heart then you are alive
If you carry dreams in your eyes then you are alive
Learn to live like the free waves of wind
Learn to flow like the sea does as waves
Receive every moment in life with open arms
Every moment is a new beginning seeing with your eyes
If you carry surprise in your eyes then you are alive
If you carry impatience in your heart then you are alive

Credit to Bolly Spice -- click on Bolly Spice to see the Hindi version.

The last poem is my favourite in this movie. Where it is recited while Arjun, Kabir and Imraan taking part in the bull run. And for me the last poem is meaningful, really. :)

The soundtrack of this movie also not bad and I love the last one played; Sooraj Ki Baahon Mein, catchy ! Also made by Javed Akhtar if I'm not mistaken. :)

p/s: three drafts already and now I'm posting a new entry. And it's about Hindi movie ? Haha.

Why bother to date me now...

2011-11-28T22:29:00.001+08:00

...we got plenty much time to date when we're married. - @nadiaizzah :)

Salam all. :)

It takes me a week plus for me to update about my 20.11.2011. I got 3 invitations to attend on that day but I only went 2 of them -- an engagement of my close friend in Asasi and a wedding reception of my friend's sister a.k.a my brother's classmate when he is in form 5. Hehe. I'm sorry Hannah for not attending your big day. Huhu. I just don't feel I can make it to all three. So I choose where I can easily go (without jammed).

Even if I don't have many pictures taken using my D5000 but I still wanna let pictures do the talking. :)

Me - Mell - Umie. :)

Nervous !

Wawa - Mell - what'shername.

Kema - Yaya.

Naz - Mell.

The hantaran.

Mell's family.

Asasians who came + Merce, Umie's boyfie + Loco (not in the picture).

Dear Mell, congratulations on your engagement with Afiq. :)

Hopefully it will last forever. Amin.

Get married fast. LOL.

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The main purpose I went to the reception was to meet Ninie ! If I'm not mistaken, we last met on 2009. How time flies so fast. :/

The newly-wed -- Kak Widad and A.Firdaus.

I asked Ca to stand beside the bride to take her bless. So next year, hopefully it will be Ca's. Hahahahaha ! :p

Ca - Ninie - Me ! :)

Congratulations Kak Widad ! :) Ohh, she still remember me after almost 5-6 years we didn't meet. Hehe.

p/s: end of the year, there will be so many wedding to be attend !

The friends can connect in a mysterious way...

2011-11-20T01:17:00.001+08:00

...even without speaking. :)

Salam all. :)

2 things in one short entry.

Job fair.
I am unemployed and seriously I am not happy with it. Until at one point I feel like giving up, but hell no, no time to think about giving up ! So, last Friday I went to BNYouth Job Fair at PWTC. Of 21 resumes printed out, I only deposit 7 of them there. It's not that I am choosy but most of the job offered doesn't related with my qualification. Sad but true, sometimes I feel regret taking a course that doesn't develop well in Malaysia. :/ But I love International Relations. Really do. It just that we, the students, the graduates, doesn't really needed in the industry, specifically, in private sector. Hmm hmm.

Birthday.
Saengil Chukhahamnida, saengil chukhahamnida, saranghaneun Zarifah, saengil chukhahamnida !

Happy 22nd birthday my dear friend, Zarifah on 19/11/11. Having a chance to call her at 0000 hours and need to compete with Abe. Forgot that she already has someone that will always try to be her first. LOL. So, I am late for few seconds from Abe. Next year I'm going to beat you no matter what. Hahaha ! Happy that she's happy. Love her for every her. May Allah bless you always, love. :)

p/s: stop complaining.

Wordless Wednesday #1

2011-11-16T01:44:00.001+08:00

p/s: My first time with wordless. :)

I have stop chasing...

2011-11-15T03:41:00.001+08:00

...I just want it to come naturally.

Salam all. :)

I was about to sleep and suddenly this two conversations crossed my mind.

#1: Skype-ing with my friend. A boy.

"When will you get married ?"

"I don't have anyone to be marry with now. Can you please find and give me one ?"

"Hmm. I don't know who but as I know, I have one."

"Who ?"

"Me. But..."

"But...?"

"But I don't want to give it to you. I want to give it to someone else."

Okay. I feel rejected. Hahaha ! No lah. No hard feelings. At all. :)

#2: A conversation between me and sis.

"Sis, when will you go for diet ?"

"Haha. Why so sudden ?"

"I asked my junior when will he tackle you ? Then he said that he wait for you to be thin first."

"Haha. That's mean ! Okay, cancel ! I don't want him anymore."

Again. No hard feelings. She makes me realize that I am getting bigger each days at home. Oh no ! T____T I can't stop eating. Food is everywhere. Help meee ! -.-"

p/s: Cinta dalam Hati by Ungu.

We plan and we hope we can make it...

2011-11-12T23:55:00.001+08:00

...but at the same time we also have to admit that we can only plan but Allah who determines all. :)

Salam all. :)

People all around the world are keep talking about yesterday's date; 11/11/11. A date that will occur only a time in 1000 years. And so, they are trying to make that date is fill with something big for them. Enough said, marriage (congrats for all the brides out there). :) Well, that date doesn't bring me any interest anyway. Everyday got their own story. Everyday bring us memories, whether the good one or the bad one, they are all will be remembered. Even the bad one we also keep that date in our mind isn't it ? So for me, 11/11/11 -- no big deal ! :)
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It's been few weeks since my last meeting them, the apple of my eyes, Epa and Thirah. So, we've planned to meet on last Thursday. It is actually to bring Thirah to Ikea. To eat meatballs or Daim cake, I'm not sure, for her birthday treat. I already forgot my conversation with Epa last week on GTalk. haha. -.-"

We are actually planning to have our breakfast first at McDonald's that day. I am longing to have our breakfast together there and it's been quite some time since my last eating McD. Hmm. But we have to admit that we can only plan but Allah who determines all. :) Me and Epa both woke up late and only by 1040am I arrived at her house. So, no McD for us that day. It's okay then -- breakfast at Epa's, eating ketupat and rendang. Haha. Much better. :)

Done with breakfast, we're all so excited to go to The Curve and Ikea. So, off we go with Kembara. Again. We have to admit that we can only plan but Allah who determines all. :) Kembara suddenly act oddly right after Epa paid the DUKE toll ! Haha. RM2, burnt ! Without thinking any better, Epa's trying to drive back to her house to change the car and we made it, BUT ONLY until the Greenwood's traffic light. The car finally stopped "breathing". Haha. We almost there, only few meters away from her home. We stuck there for almost an hour + u-turning back to Gombak from the toll added us an hour. Haha. Two hours okay, we need to handling it. What a day ! Thank you Uncle Zainal for coming and also jodoh Thirah for helping us that day ! :D Change the car and off we go again to The Curve. Alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly after that. XD

Epa, "Kembara marah kau sebenarnya ni Naa, kau lah tanya aku tadi nak naik kereta mana satu. Kan Kembara dah merajuk."

Hahahaha. Sorry Kembara, I didn't mean to. :p

Uncle Jenal. I only got 1/8 of you in this picture. Haha.

3 hours Karaoke session at RedBox The Curve. Weehoo ! (student promo okay ! Miahaha.)

Less picture, karaoke more. Hahaha. :p

Eating session at Ikea. :D

Happy belated birthday to youuuuuuu Bonbon ! :D

2 chicken wings left -- bring back home ! Hahaha.

Epa's "playing" with her Sharpie. Haha. :D

Focus on Thirah's sketch made by Epa in the middle of the page. Hahaha !

Thanks you both for a great day to be remember. For a good laugh. For a good sweat. Wahahahaha. Love you ladies to bits ! :)

To Abe from your sister (represent sister-in-law).

"Abe weyhhhh. Kak ipa ghindu doh ke mu Be ! Ye dok bau okok mu kat tange ye. Sudoh la nok wat guano ni Be weyhhhh. Berat la gini."

Hahahaha !

p/s: 3 years and hopefully until the end of time. :)

When you are in a good condition...

2011-11-05T04:52:00.001+08:00

...please don't forget Him because He's the One who gave you that. Be ashamed if you left Him behind and just trying to talk to Him only when you are down.

Salam all. :(

I'm sorry for that sad face. I just being emotional tonight for something I shouldn't care from the very beginning. I admit that I need a break from all of this. Well hey, I really hope that someone should care for the sensitivity that will arise from his/her statement. But for sure that someone has its right to tell anything at his/her page. So, shut up Ainaa. You're getting too much. My eyes burst in tears for a minute. Regret that I'm not strong enough to prevent it from falling. Looking at myself, what have I done to myself ? I let the gloominess conquered my mind and soul.

From today, me, Ainaa Amira Khairsu, has promised to;

#1 - not ever thinking/searching or ever looking at a glance at/of that person.

#2 - talk and write in my blog about that person.

#3 - avoid to pass by that person house.

#4 - Istighfar whenever that person cross my mind and trying hard to change that view to something better.

#5 - Istighfar, istighfar and istighfar.

I'd promised before not to write about that person here and I have officially break that promise months after the promise made. But today, I am dauntless with it. InsyaAllah.

"Ya Allah, the most Beneficent and the most Merciful, please give me strength, Ya Allah. And please show me that this is the right decision for me, and the right path I have chose. I'm begging you, Ya Allah, please keep me safe from things that makes me far from you. And please preserve me from things you hate. Amin ya rabbal alamin".

P/s: sacrifice for this becoming Qurban.

Don't stop dreaming...

2011-11-03T04:50:00.000+08:00

...because sometimes it gives you strength to face the reality. ;)

Salam all. :)

I just hope that I can get a job at least before 2011 ended. Please let me get my first job when I am still 21 ? -.-"
No, no. I'm just too desperate to get a job. Zzzzz~ I can feel the heat. I can feel the pressure. Yes, the pressure is getting higher and higher each days. Who says being unemployed is exciting ? enjoyable ? delightful ? Okay. They are all got the same meaning. Hmm. Please don't say that I'm not looking for them. I'm hunting for them everyday. *cries* I seriously need a job. I need money. :/

I have listed the things I'm going to do with my salary. My own money. When can I get that opportunity ? Hmm. Stop questioning, Ainaa. You already know that the time will come to you at any time. Just be patient. Allah won't give us obstacles if we can not going through it. :)
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My friends said that I am too "expensive". Expensive in terms of to get close with a guy. Hoho. Nothing much I can say, just nodded my head for that. Sad but true, I put a distance with man since 3 years ago. I have easily gave my heart to them who don't know how to appreciate it and now it has become a nightmare to me. I actually wanted to share an article about this. But I can't recall who's sharing it on my Facebook, so I didn't found that article. Huhu. -.-"

p/s: I'm starting to love November. A good start for me though. :)

Let's expect...

2011-11-03T02:04:00.002+08:00

...the unexpected, they said. :)

**this is an appreciation entry for 6ixth Sense band.

Salam all. :)

My hands suddenly getting cold. My face getting warmer and I can feel that it turns red. (put aside the job hunting session for a while)

I was looking at my blog stats when I realized that my 6ixth Sense's blogpost last March pageviews jump from 9 views to 42 views in only one night. At first I just ignore it. When I start mumbling about it in my Twitter, suddenly this idea crossed my mind - to check out if there is any of 6ixth Sense's fan posted the entry link somewhere. So, without hesitation, I google-d "6ixth Sense Fan Club" something like that. I didn't search for "6ixth Sense" on its own because I just don't think that it makes sense if they are the one who doing it. I know you will feel the same way too isn't it ? Usually the fans will found out it first and tell the others. Hehe.

While searching for it, I saw the 6ixth Sense Facebook Fan page , I just click on them just to check out their latest activity. BUT guess what have I found; they posted my link on their Facebook ! Whoaaaa ! I was shocked, real shocked. And excited ! Haha. This is just too AWEEEEESOME ! Seriously I'm speechless. Have been in love with them, their songs in such a long time and now they makes me fall in love again and again and again with them. Faint ! Haha. :)

Dear 6ixth Sense,

How I hope you are all reading this. Hehe. *praying*

As your fan, (sort of die-hard-fan) I feel honoured when you posted the link in your Facebook page. Well, what else can a fan hope from their favourite band if not the appreciations from them. Thank you so much for that. Thank you, thank you and thank you. I am really much appreciated it ! :)

And also, I know that the trees won't sway if there is no wind.
Thanks to those who involved directly or indirectly in sharing/found that blog entry. :)

p/s: thanks those who stopped by at my blog. :)

You make me wanna say...

2011-11-01T04:05:00.003+08:00

...I do I do I do do do do do do do. :)

Salam all. :)

While typing to this entry, I am also at the same time YM-ing with my bff. Talking about marriage and all. We are all big enough to talk about it already isn't it ? Oh well, I am just so excited to talk about it. :)

When we were little, we used to collect the Kad Raya, but now ? I am busy collecting my friends wedding invitations card. Come on ladies, who else wanna get married, please send me your invitation card. Miahaha. Desperado.

I'm looking forward to this 20.11.2011 for one of my close friend's engagement. Feel like only yesterday we met, she with another man that time. And now she's getting engage with someone else. They said, to meet the right one, we are going to meet some other (wrong) people first. Haha. :) And also on the same day, I have a wedding reception to attend. To attend or not to attend. I wish I am attending both. InsyaAllah if there's no obstacle. :)

There's few of my friends wedding that I've missed since they are all quite far from my home. Johor and all. I hope I can make it for this becoming wedding reception and engagement since both are in Selangor ! Haha. :)

p/s: and also looking forward for my cousin's wedding this December.

I'd rather be anything...

2011-10-30T02:46:00.001+08:00

...but ordinary please. :)

Salam all. :)

November is approaching. How time flies so fast. October is about to end already. :(

Skype with one of my closest friend just now. Almost cry when we talked about someone-you-know-who. I repeat. ALMOST and not already did. I found that there's no reason for me to cry anymore. There's nothing about him for me to think or care. Seriously, I don't. But the heart never lies. I do miss him sometimes. Err. Not really miss him I think. Maybe I just miss to be loved by someone I wish to spend my lifetime with ? Haha. Nahhh ! Why should I care now ?
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Still job hunting until now. Not everyone being so lucky to get a job right after they graduate. I'm not going to sigh or ever giving up. Go go Ainaa ! :)

P/s: Watched Paranormal Activity back to back and now I already understand the storyline. Haha. :)

Eat that poisonous apple...

2011-10-28T03:53:00.001+08:00

...so that the prince will come after you and give you a kiss to wake you up. :p

Salam all. :)

As we grow bigger, we've put so many things aside. Where things we usually do, we love to do, we doesn't even care now. But once we try to do that things, now, we had so much fun. Longing to be a kid once again.

Not many knows that I actually used to live in Wangsa Maju before. But only until I was 6 that is when my mom gave birth to my baby sister then we moved to Selayang. The family's getting bigger, so, we need a bigger space, right ? Hehe. :) We live at Section One Wangsa Maju, near to Alpha Angle a.k.a Jaya Jusco (JJ), that famous shopping mall in 1990s. :p

When I was little (3 or 4 y.o), I always asked my mum to go to JJ. Why ? Because it got a huge Snow White's musical clock. Plus, it only took us about 5 minutes walk from home. Raise your hands up if you remember that Snow White ! Haha. :p Whenever I asked mum to go there, mum will said;

"Okay, kalau nak pergi Jaya 'IDO' (Tidur), kita tidur dulu ya." OR,
"Jom pergi Jaya 'IPU' (Tipu), tapi adik kena tidur dulu la." OR,
any Jaya that make sense to me. Hahaha ! #epic.

That's how Mama persuade me to sleep and trying to makes me forget about JJ (for a while). I was so addicted to that musical clock. Seriously I am ! Miahahaha. Each and every minutes I will ask mum to watch that musical clock. The Snow White and Seven Dwarfs will come out at every one hour.

I google-d about that clock and finally got this picture.

Credit to the owner of "eimhafluz" blog. :)

Nevertheless, there's no more musical clock in Alpha Angle now. How sad. That is just so nostalgic. :(

*I actually wanted to tell you some other stories, don't know why suddenly I came out with this Snow White thingy. haha. -.-"

P/s: I don't have many friends when I was little.

I can count on you...

2011-10-25T23:48:00.002+08:00

...like four three two, you'll be there. :)

Salam all. :)

It has been few days since my voice being sick. Bad sore throat is bad. I got fever for two days and got real bad cough for a week already. The weather's quite challenging these days. Sometimes it extremely hot and sometimes it rains heavily. No wonder so many people fall sick this few weeks. *sigh*

However, a real bad cough doesn't affect the plans that we have made before. We finally spend three days in Ipoh. When I said "we", it refers to me, FaThirah and Zarifah anyway. Hee. :) We already planned a long long time ago since we're in UKM to spend our time someday in Ipoh, specifically, Lost World of Tambun. And finally we made it ! :)

Lost World of Tambun starts to open on 11am and by 11am we already arrived there. Excited, YES ! :D Haha ! Counting hours people, it close at 6pm, and only by 6pm we went out from the waterpark. Haha. We can barely see the sun, but my skin surprisingly burned ! T_T

Can you actually see the stripes ? Nice one ehhhh Tambun ? T_T

I got few pictures in Tambun but I don't know where did I put it. Haha. Back from Lost World, had a precious nap and our dinner, then we off to Kinta City to watch Real Steel with Palie. Eh, have I told you yet (in my blog ?) that my Abe now is Zarifah boyfie. Weeheee ! :D

**Real Steel superbly worth watching. Dakota Goyo's smile caught my attention ! Haha ! And Hugh Jackman ? You're aweeeeesome like always ! :D

Before we went back to KL, we stopped by at Kellie's Castle. Finally after years I just passed it by, I managed to enter it !

Kellie's Castle from the front. :)

There's two couples taking their wedding photo here in Kellie's. This is one of them. :)

I just adore this picture. :)

The three of us. :)

We. Again. :)

Capturing FaThirah's photo.

Them ! :)

Well actually, once we enter Kellie's, we saw KRU production is there too. So I asked Epa, "Ehhh. KRU Production is here ! Is Yusry here too ?" (imagining Lisa and Yusry all of a sudden). Haha. Without knowing that Allah already set that we are going to meet him there, that day. :)

Epa's taking my picture at that time when she told me,"Ainaa, Yusry !" And me, "Yusry...for real ?!" Seriously I thought she lied to me. But well she's not ! There he goes, climbed up the stairs, passed us by. Wohohoho. Speechless ! We are actually wanted to get some photos with him. T___T

Can you see someone with the orange shirt. That's Yusry by the way. Haha. -.-"

Shhhh ! It's Vikingdom's thingy (behind the scene). :p

Credit to Zarifah for this picture.

Three days and actually it will never enough for us. We need more but due to the "house's rules" that I have to obey, we just stick to the plan. Thanks for understanding you both ! And thanks also for the three days of laughs (and cries). :)

p/s: I'm going to watch Vikingdom once it release. Haha !

It's only words...

2011-10-19T05:26:00.001+08:00

...and words are all I have to take your heart away. :)

Salam all. :)

Dear Twitter,
Sometimes we're randomly mumbling, generally speaking to everyone, not even refer to anyone.

Dear Twitter,
Sometimes I tweet specially for someone I miss, someone I love and somehow about someone I annoyed and mad with. So much love and so much hatred.

Dear Twitter,
Sometimes I just love to share my feelings there. Sentimental.

Dear Twitter,
Sometimes what I really am trying to say is totally different with what are the people think.

Dear Twitter,
Sometimes, the tweet that I want to refer to someone is being misinterpreted by someone else and they claim that the tweet is for them.

Dear Twitter,
How big is your role in making people's life miserable besides making their life much happier connecting with one another.

But Dear Twitter,
Don't worry, I'm not blaming you.
I'm blaming self for not being concern enough with what will people think with my own words.

I'm not done with you yet. I still love you anyway for making my life easier catching what my friends up to now. Thank you (and f you too anyway). XD

P/s: those who ever thought my tweets is for you, sometimes you are right but most of the time, you are WRONG !

Tenangkan jiwa...

2011-10-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

...lupakan segala sengketa, mulakan yang baru. :)

Salam semua. :)

Entri kali ni berbahasa Melayu sepenuhnya, insyaAllah. Lama tak berbicara mengenai hati yang kian terabai. Hidup seorang penganggur memang membebankan barangkali. Tidak tenang. Ada sahaja yang dirisaukan.

Entah kenapa dua tiga hari ni hati rasa berdebar, hati rasa sunyi, hati rasa tidak menentu. Mungkin sindrom pra-haid. Entah. Saya pun tak mengerti. Malas mahu ambil kisah kiranya tapi kerana kasihnya pada diri sendiri, saya turutkan juga minda untuk melayan sang hati. :)

Ironinya bila kita makin cuba hindari sesuatu itu, semakin dekat pula ia hampiri.
Ironinya bila kita mahu mendekati, semakin pula ia menjauhi. :)

Untuk kali yang ketiga, tarikh ini menghantui saya, kali ketiga juga saya menganggapnya satu kekuatan, semakin mengurangkan pengharapan. Betapa hati ini saya jaga untuk tidak mudah jatuh. Takut2 kehilangan lagi. Tidak mampu rasanya untuk hadapi keadaan yang menyakitkan sekali lagi. Masih belum tegar hati ini.

Bukan masih mencinta, hanya TERhidup di dalam memori lama. Kali pertama rasanya seperti tiada yang mampu mengganti. Kali kedua mula goyah hati ini, tawar semakin dirasai. Di tahun yang ketiga, Alhamdulillah, semakin tiada gelodak di jiwa menanti cinta yang sudah mati tiga tahun lalu. :)

19102008 - 19102011.
Selamat tinggal mimpi ngeri. Selamat datang mimpi indah. :)

P/s: harapan baru. :)

Everything happens for a reason...

2011-10-12T13:57:00.001+08:00

...just bear in mind that there's something better awaits you outside. :)

Salam all. :)

It's been quite some times since my last post. Got nothing to mumble about. Life's been so plain and boring these days.

As for those who don't know, I've attended a job interview last two weeks for a placement as marketing executive. Alhamdulillah, I passed the interview and got the job. But unfortunately, I didn't accept the job offer. Why ? I got plenty of reasons, but I will only tell you two.

(1) I don't like marketing. Very much.
Since I was in UKM, I never hold the marketing post. Seriously I don't really into it. They said, just give it a try, who knows you'll like it once you're in it. I'd say, I don't want to ruins my first job. I already saw how people don't like their work and how they confront it everyday. I don't want to take any risks about that.

(2) first job is important as it will determine your future.
I already watched how work experience become so influential in the jobs you've applied. I don't want to be stuck in the marketing section.

Seems like I am choosy about my job. It's not that. I only wants the best for my future. Everyone does isn't it ? I just hope I'm going to get a job at least by the end of this year. InsyaAllah, amin.

P/s: tambun anyone ? XD

Reminiscing the good times...

2011-09-30T19:12:00.001+08:00

...is one of the way to make you smile back again when you're down. :)

Salam all. :)

It's been 5 days since my convocation day last Sunday. How time flies so fast. Everything still remains fresh in my mind, feels like it's only happened a few hours ago (exaggerating, I know). I'm going to talk about my graduation again in this post. I'm truly sorry if you feel bored but I don't want to ruins my graduation mood which is still alive until today. LOL.

It's like a tradition to received flowers on the convocation day. For some people maybe they don't really like it and thought it's just a waste. But not for me of course. I love flowers (but I don't know which flower I like the most. haha). :D

This bouquet of daisies and roses is from my mum.

Seriously I don't expect much but this is just too awesome !

Thank you Mama for the purple monkey wearing the mortar board.

(FYI, my mum bought the mortar board and the monkey separately and she sewed the mortar board on the monkey's head.)

This bouquet of daisies and lilies is from Ayang.

There's two dolls there, smurf and a tiny teddy bear.

Mum said that Abang Asyraf wants the Smurf and Ayang wants the bear, something like that. Haha.

This bouquet of roses is from my bestfriend, Caca.

Love the bear as the colour is white. :D

As the graduation gift, I always prefer something that is long lasting. And as for my dad, he's already choose what will we get when we are officially a degree holder. Promise is a promise, thanks Pa for the graduation gift. I really really appreciate it. :)

This is what I've been waiting for so long. Replacing my 9 years old Seiko 5 watch. Thank you Papa and Mama for this. Seriously I love it ! :D

Guess how does the watch looks like. Ngehs.

Ta-daaaaa !

Simple but it looks good, no, no, it is actually great for me. Hee.

It's Tissot Classic Bridgeport everyone ! Weehee. :)

As everyone knows, I'm a fan of CK One Summer's perfume.

I've started to fall in love with this perfume a few years ago when Papa bought it one for me in 2005.

It's a limited edition perfume that only came out on summer and got different smell each time it came out.

Thank you Ayang for this CK One Summer 2011 !

Seriously I love this latest edition smell. Hee.

At first, I want to classify it as a flower, but of course it is not.

This one is from my baby sister.

It got the Famous Amos cookies inside the tin. Hehe.

Last but not least, this one I got yesterday from my bestfriend, Epa...

Eventhough we don't have the chance to be together on the stage receiving the scroll, but she's still manage to give Thirah and me this cute thing. I'm seriously touched when she gave me this.

A box and a card made by herself.

A purple envelope, a purple ribbon. All purple ! XD

A pink purple Fossil coin pouch from Epa. She said that she don't really have any idea what to give us.

But for me, everything that she did already enough to put a smile on my face.

Thank you my dear Epa. :)

A purple mortar board card made by herself. And what's inside the card seriously makes me miss them just so much (well I already did). :(

Thank you everyone for all these. I'm pleased, I'm blessed and I'm touched with all of these. :)

p/s: I hope I'm strong enough to fight it !

Graduation is not the ending...

2011-09-27T02:52:00.003+08:00

...it is actually the beginning of your life. :)

Salam all. :)

Finally, I'm officially graduated yesterday.Alhamdulillah. :) So nervous as we step into the hall. Almost cry when we sang the "Negaraku" song and when they sang the "Varsiti Kita" song. Oh my, the 3 years journey in UKM finally ended with the scroll of Bachelor's Degree in Social Science with Honours (International Relations). Congratulations to those who graduated this year. For those who are not, no worries, you guys got plenty much time to complete it. Just have faith that you're going to finish it soon no matter what. :)
Well, I don't see any of my lecturers in the hall but I got a call from Madame Irene before I enter the hall, congratulate me on my graduation. Merci Beaucoup Madame ! :) I don't want to talk much here, let's the pictures tell you the rest.

Just after I walked out from DECTAR. :D

The only who came + A. Asyraf (Ayang's bf).

On Ayang's convo day in August '10, the last two girls in the family came.

During Angah's convo day in November '10, all the siblings were there.

And yesterday, the first two girls in the family came.

My parents ? Of course they came in all three ! :D

The first coursemate that I took picture with after the ceremony, Suraiza. :)

Called the rest, everyone's busy with their family and I didn't find any to take picture with.

So, of we go to the gong in front of DECTAR hoping that they are all there. Hehe.

On the way to the gong, I met Yen Sin, also my coursemate. Hehe.

Presenting Ariey ! A friend from Asasi and now a final year law student in UKM. Thanks for coming Ariey and the rest. :)

Bestfriend with his huge bear, Shahir.

With Papa and Mama in front of DECTAR.

I'm the one who choose their clothes on that day. Eheh. :)

The flowers I got (not in the picture, flowers from Caca and famous amos from Baby).

On the left side is from Mama with a purple monkey wearing mortar board.

On the right side is from Ayang with a smurf and a small bear, both wearing the mortar board. :D

The five of us ! :)

From left: Zura, me, Shahir, Raudhah, Wong, Cath and Abah. :D

We're all the IR graduates except for Zura as she's a Political Science graduate. :)

With Zura, my bestfriend in UKM.

We're both were in the same class in Asasi. :)

Presenting Apih, also a friend from Asasi and now a final year law student in UKM.

Same as Zura, he's also in the same class with me in Asasi. :)

Presenting Hasan, my class representative in Asasi and he's also a final year law student now in UKM.

Believe me you guys won't recognize him if I put his Asasi pictures here. He's changed !:p

My coursemate and also a levelmate in Block A, Kolej Pendeta Za'ba for 2 years, Raudhah. :)

Nazurah Sahadun. :)

Take a break for a while. Can't stand wearing the shoes. Haha.

Oh, presenting Ayang's bf, the one who wears the purple shirt. Sooo out of theme ! :p

Mama. :)

Papa. :)

Ayang and A.Asyraf. :)

Ayong. :)

This is a candid actually. :)

Bestfriend since secondary, Caca. Thank you for coming on my big day. Really much appreciate it ! :)

Last but not least, with Haris. the one from Asasi also and now a final year law student. :)

Sincerely from my heart, thanks you for all the wishes through my Facebook, Twitter and all. I'm pleased. :)

Please don't be jealous, I know you guys will all get it someday, sooner or later, doesn't affect anything. Fight fight for your first degree ! :)

**Quite sad actually I don't have my graduation picture with my another two bestfriends in UKM, Thirah and Epa. :(

p/s: He doesn't congratulate me. How I wish he would, at least.

Remember what you get...

2011-09-25T03:13:00.001+08:00

...remember The One who gave you that. Syukur. :)

Salam all. :)

Forgive me for the lack of updates now as my laptop is in the service centre for an unknown period. So many things to share. But I don't know where to start. And I really don't know which one should I tell you first. -.-"

So last Saturday I went to UKM with my friends to collect the robe and mortar board for my convocation day which have been scheduled today (25th September 2011). Excited ? YES ! But still, feel something missing. For those who knows, I know you'll feel the same way too, right ? :(

Here is the robe.

Size "S" okay ? haha. They said, the sizes are differ from each other on their length and not on their girth.

As for you who don't know, UKM differentiate the students by the colour of the robe. There will be different colour for each faculty. For example; green robe for Social Science Faculty and brown robe for Engineering Faculty. :)

This is the gift from UKM for the female student ONLY.

We can't choose the colour but mine got a very nice colour isn't it ? Hee. :)

Closed up.

There's UKM's logo on it. But it's okay, we can simply hide it inside whenever we wear it. :p

Two passes for my parents. Well, each student only get two of them.

My parents will surely come. InsyaAllah. And also my two big sisters. Only them will be there. My bro got work's training and my baby sister needs to focus on her PMR exams next week. So, they can't make it.

It's okay. Let's just have some fun with everyone that will be there. hehehe. I am just sooooo excited. :D

p/s: There's one time, I asked someone to be there with me to share the joy. But I know, he wouldn't come. :)

One of the greatest feelings is...

2011-09-16T05:05:00.003+08:00

...knowing you are surviving well without the people you thought you can't live without - taken from @faliqfahmie's tweet,

Salam all. :)

Wish that I am now updating my days in Singapore last week, but no, I am not. Surprises by surprises. I am now need to confront with myself. You think it easy ? NOT AT ALL. It is so not cool man when you have to handle your unstable emotions and all.

*while I'm typing this, I just witnessed the death of my 2 weeks baby kitten named Namey @ Memey. :( It is so heartbreaking to see it dying. Hmmm. More heartbreaking is when mum just bought the milk for kitten and a feeding-bottle for it this evening. :(

**this post is dedicated to two of my friend. I hope they both know that I am talking about them. I just love them so much and to see them hurt, it hurts me too. :(

Dear you (1),
I surely can't compare my situation and yours now because it is totally different. But the only thing that we share is we both had a difficult time which involved the man that we love. But I already passed the hardness by surrender it, not by my choice, but him. Frankly, I already gave up at first but still trying to convinced myself that there is still the chance to make everything back to normal. But as you can see, IT IS NOT. As in your case. I know that you're stronger enough to dump him first. Yes, I know that you will say, "Dear, all you can see is only in the surface, you can't see how bad my heart is broken now." And I know that you think that you will regret on your decision someday by leaving him. One thing my dear, if he really meant for you, whatever happens, he will still meant for you. Allah always keep His words to all His slaves. I know you do believe in jodoh right ? Then why should you think of being regret ? Don't push yourself too hard. It's not that I want to destroy the 4 years relationship of you and him. But remember, you have to love yourself first, then only you can love another. Let me ask you now, do you love yourself as much as you love him or do you love him more than yourself. You should choose at first is yourself. Why ? How can you love another if you don't really love yourself. How can you care for another if you don't care about yourself ? Am I right ? Sometimes, you just have to be selfish, only for yourself. Not for others. I choose to shut my mouth all this while but after I saw your current condition, I can't see any reason why should I keep silent. I just hope you will make a right decision for YOURSELF. Believe in Allah, believe in yourself. You need to stop this or else you just keep hurting yourself and put the burden on your head with unanswered question.

Sincerely,
ainaaamira.

Dear you (2),
I wished that I get to know about that earlier but no, I am not. Don't worry, I'm not angry but I just regret that I am not with you when you're totally down. I'm sorry for not being so alert. :( There's nothing much I can say but when you told me the other day in the car, there were tears in my eyes but I try to not show it to you, I'm just focusing on my driving and talk something craps. I don't want to make you cry, at least not with me, I can't stand to see you crying. Please remember, I will always be right behind you to lend my shoulders for you. You will always get my support in everything that you do. Be positive, friend. I really hope you will do well. You got plenty much time to score for it and you can always find me to ask for help. Remember that we always together no matter ups or downs even if you already have someone special. I love you, I really do. Seeing you in this condition, seriously makes me worry. Believe in yourself that you can do it with the supports given by us. Don't ever think you are all alone. We are here, always.

Sincerely,
ainaaamira.

p/s: RIP Memey. :(

Give me some space...

2011-09-06T02:49:00.000+08:00

...I really need to breathe !

Temasek day #1.

Salam all. :)

Just for you to know that I am now in Singapore with my Mama accompanying my sister who needs to attend her work's training there. So, it's three of us plus Ayang's colleague, Hanif. :) We will be here until Saturday. Almost a week huh ? I think it's good for me to escape from "something". Or "someone" actually ? Who cares by the way. Even if I don't have the chance to beraya with my friends, that's what I really want to do right now, to be here, away from home. Never intend to talk much here. Just enjoy the pictures below. :)

Orchard Rd. just takes only 3-5minutes walking from the hotel. :)

Oh no ! We've lost in Singapore ! haha.

No lah. Mama just wanted to asks where to find Maybank there. Hehe. :)

Oh, I have no idea what that is. Haha ! It just caught my eyes.

Singapore sculpture near to the Raffles Place MRT station.

Merlion park at noon.

Marina Bay Sands at noon.

The bridge from Merlion Park heading to Esplanade.

A glimpse of Kampung Glam.

The Sultan's Mosque.

Where I had my lunch. haha. From Merlion Park, flew to Kampong Glam just to had lunch ! lol.

Wait. This building looks creepy. Like a piece of paper !

Oh, it's actually a triangle building. haha.

Singapore's Murtabak !

Fullerton Hotel.

The Fullerton Hotel's window. Just like it. haha. :)

Marina Bay Sands at night. (Ignore the crane. haha.)

Little fountains with red light.

Don't ask me what this is. Haha.

Merlion Park at night.

Esplanade at night.

Singapore Flyer + Marina bay Sands + Merlion.

Again. Don't ask me what this is. lol.

Last but not least. Hershey's Mascot.

See the girl with cap next to Ayang ? She's a Korean and on vacation all alone. We walked together to the City Hall MRT Station as she don't know how to get there. And we met this Hershey's Mascot on our way there. :)

p/s: I asked the girl how to pronounce Etude. hahaha !

Sometimes we forgot...

2011-09-06T01:51:00.000+08:00

...what we used to do when we were little.

Salam all. :)

I still remember when I was in lower form and in primary school, I was very excited to post the kad raya to some of my friends. I'll be waiting for the postman to come everyday hoping they will reply mine. But now ? Not anymore. Obviously, this Ramadhan I'm just waiting for the postman to bring me a letter from UKM. Haha. :p

Anyhoo, at the age of 21, I still receive the kad raya from my friends. Not as much as before but only 4 cards and they are all posted and NOT given by hand. :)

The first card was given by my ex-roommate in Kolej Pendeta Za'ba. She posted a kad raya along with a birthday card and also an angpow. Thanks Akak ! That was my first duit raya for this year. :p

The kad raya.

The birthday card.

Quite weird actually when my roommate didn't wish my birthday the other day. But then it turns out that she actually wants to surprise me with this card. Wanted to use another method, she said. :)

The second, third and fourth arrived on the same day. So, I don't know which one is sent first. haha. The best thing was they are all from Johor ! :)

By only looking at the envelope, I already knew who's posting it. An ex-Maxis-intern-student of course, Eyra Gadis. :) Well hey, it's from Tangkak !

This one I only have to look at her handwriting and I already knew whom writing it. :)

It's from Nazurah, representing Pontian !

Last but not least. It takes me a while before I can figure out who's sending me this card. The clue is only "Kluang". I thought it was Yaya since she's from Kluang, I forgot that my Abang King was also there. Haha. Thanks anyway Abang King for this card ! :)

Complete all four. Thanks for the kad raya everyone. :)

p/s: I will reply those cards next year, can I ? :p

The happiness is very meaningful...

2011-09-02T12:55:00.002+08:00

...if we share it with everyone else. :)

Salam all. :)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all of you.
Please forgive me in everything that I've done wrong and anything that hurts your feelings and all. :)
I know it's the fourth day of raya already. Haha. Sorry for the late guys.

p/s: The program needs to start now !

No matter how far I'll go...

2011-08-28T01:17:00.006+08:00

...you guys will always be in my heart. :)

Salam all. :)

It's good to have iftar with all the family members around and seriously it also great when you have it with your best friends around. :) So after almost a month I haven't meet my friends, I finally had my iftar with some of the Kepochis and some my best friends in school.

The Kepochis.

Well, we seriously haven't meet for quite some time especially Loco, the president of the Kepochis. So, we planned and finally make it to have iftar together at Flaming Steamboat and Epa's home. Since we really love to be so Kepochi, talk and talk and talk while eat and eat and eat, we didn't take our picture there. Maybe a few ? Err, I just can count it by using my fingers. Haha. :) We don't have much time to spend our night together. They asked me to stay a little longer but seriously I can't. I'm staying with my parents now, remember ? I have to obey the curfew, "Don't come back home too late," Mama said. How I miss my night life lepak-ing with my friends when I was in UKM. Hungry ? Just text Shahir and off we go to get some food to eat. Talk and talk and talk something craps, had a sleepless night doing our assignment together along with Epa and Thirah. Studying at McD with Loco etc. Oh my...how I miss everything about them. :( We really need a day or two to spend together. Too many things to share with them. I know you all did too, right ? Haihhh~

The good old friends.

Since I was too busy last semester doing my thesis, I rarely contacting my best friend in UIA Kuantan, Anie. We do called each other before but not when I am in my final semester. When I know that she is now on her semester break (UIA's academic calendar usually different from other universities), I told Caca (if you're my loyal reader, I know you have read her name much in my previous posts. haha) that we MUST have our iftar together this year no matter what. So off we go yesterday to make it real. We had our iftar at Bubba Gump. The food quite pricey I tell you. But the memories there ? PRICELESS. We had iftar with Shaheizy Sam on the next table. How cool is that ? Haha. Never crossed my mind to have that opportunity. We don't have to go to any iftar event with the artistes yaww. Haha. And not only that, Bront Palarae passed by our table and yes, I adore him for giving me a humble smile. Thank you for that Bront. Now that I like you more brothahh ! :) Enough for that. Seriously I'm happy to meet my best friends yesterday. I'm not in Malaysia on the second week of Raya, and I know that I don't have a chance to celebrate my Raya with them as usual. To meet them a few days before Raya already satisfied me much.

p/s: You know that I love you. :)

Life and death...

2011-08-23T14:38:00.001+08:00

...both determined by Allah and we as his slave need to accept the qada' and qadar positively.

**this is a delayed post of 21st of August 2011.

Salam all. :)

First and foremost...

My deepest condolence to one of my close friends in UKM, Izzah a.k.a Bintang Malam for losing her beloved dad early this morning. (Al-Fatihah) Seriously I keep thinking of her since I got that message from Eyra told me that Izzah's father has passed away. I still remember her tweet saying that her father had an operation last few weeks, a minor operation on his heart. And today, he's gone forever to meet his Creator. But I really can't imagine how her Syawal will be. It's only 10 days before Syawal...and she has invited me to her sister's engagement on the 5th Syawal. And her convocation day later on....Hmm. Be strong, Izzah ! I know you can go through all this.

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Have you been to Bazar Ramadhan this year ? Trust me, I haven't been to any Bazar this year until today. I am so excited as my brother craving for Sugar Cane juice and I really want some Putu Piring, so I followed him there. By using Papa's new bike, Yamaha Majesty. Not really that new but "new" to our home, we went to Pinggiran Batu Caves's Bazar Ramadhan. Got my Putu Piring, got Angah's Sugar Cane juice, we head back to our home. I put all the things we've bought under the seat. Yes, including Angah's Sugar Cane juice, my phone and my money. Weren't that I supposed to just hold it ? Hmm Hmm. As we arrived home, there's something leaking under the bike. I didn't notice it until Angah asked me where's the leak came from. We thought there's something crack under the bike, but it's not. We try to ignore but then when we open up the seat to take all the things that we put there, I saw the Sugar Cane's juice plastic already flat and everything in there was already wet INCLUDING my phone ! T______T See, I told you I supposed to hold the juice. And now I still can't switch on the phone and need to dry it. Wuwuwuwuwu. I only used that phone for a year and I really really love that phone ! T_____T FYI, I'm a person that so stingy when it comes to buy a phone for self. Take that. serve me right ! -.-"

Nice spot to dry a phone. Haha. T_T

p/s: My celcom, off.

The more you hate...

2011-08-15T14:39:00.011+08:00

...the more you'll love. :)

Salam all. :)

Here is the only "card" that I got for my 21st birthday. Haha.

I asked Ayang to buy a birthday card for me but she end up called my baby sister in SEMASHUR to make one for me. Haha ! By using A4 paper, this is it ! Wahaha~

Angah and Ayang. haha !

And for us, the girls, Mama will bought us jewellery when we turn 17 and 21. A bracelet on 17th and a necklace on 21st. As I turned 17 in 2007, Mama bought me a bracelet but unfortunately the bracelet lost somewhere in Redang. :(

In memories. :(

So, as I turned 21 this year, Mama bought me a necklace and a bracelet (as a replacement of my lost bracelet in 2009). Here they are. :)

Jengjengjeng~

Ta-daaa ! Ehehe. :)

Mama already bought this two on May. haha ! Meaning that I already wear this two since May. Hehe. Thanks Mama for the birthday present. :)

p/s: currently waiting for my birthday+graduation gift from Ayong. HAHAHA !

The love you are waiting for so long...

2011-08-12T14:02:00.004+08:00

...will come when you least expect it, they said. :)

Salam all. :)

Plain and empty. That would describe my life for now. No, it's not about my family. I enjoy every single moment with them. :) It just that I misses my friends in UKM so badly. Hmm. I miss everything about them ! :(

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I don't know why am I still longing to see him...again. After almost a year I try to avoid any contacts from/of him, which I successfully did actually. The dreams led me to this black lane once again. I hate to open up my Facebook account because I will automatically search for his name. That's explained the lack of updates in my FB account. I just opened it to check any notification, and only response to them. Zzzzz~ Go away unnecessary feelings. I need to be strict to self again and again and again. Almost 3 years y'alls !

InsyaAllah me and Mama will company Ayang to Singapore this becoming Raya for a week. Starting on the 6th Raya day. She has to attend her training there. Fly away from home. That could be an excuse to not meet him at any of my friends' house during Raya ? Haha. Could be.

p/s: headache headache ! looking for jobs !

Each year plus one...

2011-08-09T13:44:00.010+08:00

...but I never feel offended with it. Haha !

Salam all. :)

Alhamdulillah...praise to Allah that I am still breathing today. :) I just turned TWENTY-ONE yesterday and I thanked all who wish me yesterday. :) So glad that you all did remember my birthdate. Hehe. :) I've hide my birthday in Facebook but still people can see who wished my birthday on my wall. Next year (if Allah still giving me chance to live in this world, insyaAllah) I think I wanna private the wall as well on 8th August. Haha. And see who really remember mine. :p But don't worry, I know those who really remember mine. Hehe. :)

First;

SHAHIR NAIM. He called me a few days before and wished my birthday in advance. Haha.

Second;

Ayang, Aby and Angah as they gave me a "card" on the 7th evening. Haha.

Third;

Mama (as Mama heard epa's calling me at 12am. Haha.) :)

Fourth;

Epa and Palie. :)

Fifth;

Syiro.

Here is the list of people who wish me. :)

By phone (the name as in my contacts);

Epaliepa dg - call

Syiro - sms

Ayong - sms

Thirah - sms

IR Izzah - sms

MRSM Amier - sms

3A Caca dg - sms

Acoi - sms

+6017374**** - sms

Zura - sms

Ir Suraiza - sms

Dedek - sms

MRSM Kurt - sms

3A Anie clcm - sms

MOF K.Julie - sms

By Facebook;

Fadhlizil Ikhram

Fatin Athirah

Nur Zarifah

Syahirah Turiman

Josephine Lee

Mell Syahira

Afi Darwisy

Norsyuhada Zaharudin

Hasmah Salleh

Amalina Ismail

Adila Jamal

Lyla Syahirah

'Aieen Kacak

Luqman Hariz

Bagus Suryo Iswanto

Zahirah Badarudin

Noralif Ayib

Hasanuddin Yusoff

Naqib Jaafar

K-z Izzati Azhar

Tahir Roslan

Nur Zulaika Mustafa

Rosmanora Osman

Syazwani Yusoff

Kae C Yen Sin

Suraiza Shaari

Zalikha Adila

Ara Aryssa

Madihah Adzmi

Roslinda Rezali

Siti Zairyn

Dayang Noor Ailani

Emmy June

Mira Zaharani

Wan Syamsul Fauzee

Fairuz Khairunnisa Ibrahim

Faiz Mohammad

Wan Nadia Izzah

Nur Ili Nadiah Zulkiple

Nurul Fateha

Najihah Ali

Anok Besut

Ruby Rahim

Hamie Hokkien

Azleen Hasnudin

Anan Kaberi

NOr HAna

Dinie Irfan

Nur Sakinah

By Twitter;

bonboruu

nurzarifah

REDariey

Aqilah_Amin

megathakimi

amalinaismail

AzzairiRosle

yayahani

slay789

amersama

cikdeline

paliezil (nurzarifah)

aifatrahman

EyraGadis

EffaFarida

Papa sleep early yesterday night and wish me after Sahur, before Subuh's Azan. :)

The list...less than last year but still a lot to me ! Thanks for all the wishes everyone. I'm pleased. :)

p/s: Mama already gave my 21st birthday present last 2 months ! Haha. :)

And when the rain begins to fall...

2011-08-08T16:58:00.006+08:00

...you are my rainbow in the sky.

Salam all. :)

I don't know whether I did mention about my broken spectacles in my previous post. If not, yes, I've broke my almost two years old spectacles last few weeks. Haih~ Quite a mess actually when we can not see clearly what we saw (especially when you came all the way to watch your national team football match in the stadium last July). Hmmm. It takes 2 weeks for me before I make the new one. So, I just wear the "uncomfortable" contact lens these few weeks. Why the "uncomfortable" ? It just that I don't like it to have lenses or other things in my eyes. I'll feel sleepy, my eyes feel a bit itchy. Enough said, I hate it. But in this situation, I just have to wear it. Or in some other occasion such as dinner or wedding reception, I'm gonna wear it. Ok, I actually not going to talk more about this. Just wanna show you my new spectacles. :)

Here is the case (of the old one). Eheh. :)

The broken spectacles. :(

The old frame is black !

And I can change to any colour that I want. Eheh.

And this is the new one........

Ta-daaaaaa ! Yes, I choose the same frame for my new one !

And it's RED ! :)

Still I can change to any colour that I want. :)

And I got 6 colour of all. Yeay ! :)

p/s: I'm craving for steamboat ! Urghhhhh~

Strict to yourself...

2011-08-04T00:00:00.008+08:00

...when it comes to something you eager to have.

Salam all. :)

Last few days (a day before Ramadhan) I spend my precious time with my old friends from secondary school. It's hard to meet between us unless it's Raya. Alhamdulillah we finally meet eventhough there's only four of us, me, 'Aieen, Caca and Qiena. :) Don't want to talk much. Just enjoy the pictures below. Hee. :)

Here is the driver of the day. Haha. :p

This is what we've done instead of eating muffins made by the person above. Eheh. :)

Syaqina Nordin. :)

Me, myself. Haha.

LMAO seeing this picture. Sorry Ca. hahaha !

Me and Aieen. :)

Jumping session. Got bunch of it ! lol.

The pictures of us. Haha ! We're crazy over it. Luckily it's Maghrib and we have to get back home. :p

It's good to gather like this. We do it again next time eh ? eheee. :)

p/s: Need to be strict to self. haih~

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak...

2011-08-02T01:11:00.003+08:00

...we're so longing to meet you.

Salam all. :)

1st of August 2011 and also indicated the 1st of Ramadhan 1432H. Happy Fasting everyone ! Amar Ma'ruf Nahi Munkar. In this month full of barakah hope that we can leave everything that lead us to vice. It's good to had Sahur with everyone around on the first day of fasting. Alhamdulillah. I'm blessed !

p/s: 6 days only please. =.=

Congratulations...

2011-08-02T00:26:00.006+08:00

...to everyone who will be graduating with me this September ! :)

Salam all. :)

Finally I can check the convocation's session for 39th UKM Convocation Ceremony. Here is the details. :)

Mind only the red box. Eheh. Alhamdulillah. InsyaAllah I'll be graduating on 25th of September 2011. :) If I'm not mistaken, my ex-roommate for three years in UKM will also graduating in the same session. Weehee ! I am excited ! So excited ! :D

Ohh, about the debt. Supposedly that it's already clear but due to misunderstanding between JPA and UKM, they debit the money from our account back. So, there's still debt that I need to clear. Huh~ They shouldn't credited the money into our account at the first place. So confusing !

Hmm...I haven't got the re-check result yet. Whatever the result will be, I hope everything will go well until the day. Amin.

p/s: Happy belated birthday "Hottie" !

Someone stole the key of my heart...

2011-07-26T02:18:00.005+08:00

...and never return it back to me.

Salam all. :)

A few years ago, when I turned 18...

No stamp because it has been given by hand.

And that's the big card. Haha. As requested. :p

Inside ? No one cares now. Just mind the date. 080808. *coughcough* Hee. :)

When will I get this big card again ehh ? Kehkehkeh.

I have returned everything to him. But not this one. It's not that I want to keep it but I forgot about it. =,= I keep it somewhere in my cupboard and only found it when I cleaning out it later on.
So, who's going to give me this another big card ? :p

p/s: Ramadhan is approaching ! :)

The day will be great....

2011-07-26T00:26:00.006+08:00

...if you spend it with your loved ones. :)

Salam all. :)

Woke up from my sleep last Sunday, I quickly brush my teeth and wear my contact lenses. My sister suddenly came to my room and asked me what am I doing ? I simply answer with "I don't know". Well I got no plan at all since Papa and Mama went to menghantar pengantin (the bride was my neighbour in Wangsa Maju 15 years ago) somewhere in Bukit Belacan and already left the house at 10am. Please noted that I am now an insomniac and will only wake up from sleep at noon. =.= She asked me to bake the egg tart with her. How can I refuse that. I love egg tart ! :) I got no picture on the progress and I got no recipe to share. Sorry but all I can tell you is that my sister got the recipe from YouTube. Hee. :)

Here is the result of our egg tart. :) Superb ! The taste ? Much more delicious than the bakery shop. LOL. Seriously it tastes so good. My brother thought that we bought it somewhere. Well hey, your sisters both doing it okayyy. :)

To be true, I love cooking more than baking. But still, I am enjoying every bits of baking. :) And I like to play with the dough and somehow curi-curi makan the dough. LOL. Last week we've done something with cream cheese. I forgot the name (and I can't even find it on the web. Oh no ! Have to search it one by one. -,-). Got the recipe from Kraft Philadelphia's website. So yummy ! :D The taste just nice and not so sweet. Thanks to my sister who loves baking so much and drag me into this together. Hee. :)

p/s: Forgot to tell that I've broke my spectacles. T_T

Everybody's changing...

2011-07-22T03:33:00.010+08:00

...and I don't feel the same.

Salam all. :)

Nothing much to say. I'm still awake to help Mama early on this morning. I may not sleep now or else I'm not going to wake up to help her. So, better I stay awake rather than sleeping tonight. :)

That was my status yesterday in Facebook. Credit to "Lie to Me" drama for that. A girl who is still love her ex and came back 3 years after they're breaking up longing to get back together. But the man he loves already fall for someone else when she came back. One of their friends told her that "do not look at him as in the past 3 years, but try to look at him now". That reminds me of everybody's changing. You may not change your feeling towards him/her, but he/she always can. :) So, love them for what they are now. Do not compare them to their past. :)

p/s: quarter of the heart says he is still there.

If you still think of the old one...

2011-07-20T03:12:00.002+08:00

..how can you get a new one ?

Salam all. :)

As you can see, I've changed my blog's layout. Well, a simple one from blogger itself. And I also added a page of contact where I put my Facebook and Twitter links. :)

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Remember the previous post I've made about the dreams that I got ? Of him ? After I text-ed him that day, the dreams doesn't haunted me anymore. Alhamdulillah. :) But, from a few reliable sources, I found out that he had an accident few weeks later (after I text-ed him). If I'm not mistaken, he already recovered from his injuries. Alhamdulillah. Maybe it just a coincidence that I dream about him for few times and what have I thought became true. But who knows the truth right ? It makes me think and think and think a lot of it. Who cares about what am I thinking ? Nahh ! No one. Just hope he will always be fine and take care of himself well.

p/s: I miss my Kepochis. :(

Everything happens...

2011-07-17T00:50:00.007+08:00

...for a reason.

Salam all. :)

It's been few days since my emotional post. Nothing to be mumbling about. I got the idea but don't have the time to post (or in other words, I am lazy).

17th of July...supposed that we're now in Bandung, just arrived all the way from Jakarta on 16th evening, but unfortunately, here we are, still in MALAYSIA. Sadly to say that we had to burn all the tickets. :( 2 of us (FaThirah and Zarifah) need to attend the PTD M41's exam on 16th. Have to admit that we can only plan, but everything is determined by Allah. There's always hikmah behind all that. InsyaAllah we gonna make it some other time. :)

Talk about hikmah, alhamdulillah, I got two free passes to watch the Malaysia vs Arsenal on 13th of July live in Bukit Jalil National Stadium from MixFM. Weehoo. 13th is supposed to be the day we flew to Jakarta and I got this opportunity to watch Arsenal. Are you crazy ? This is awesome ! Thank you so much Mix FM for the two free passes. At first I was intended to bring my only brother along with me since we both are Arsenal's fan but he just can't make it. Work, who can escape that ? Hmm ! It gave me few times to think who I wanna bring since my mum refused to follow. Ceit. I already got this name in mind before I decided to invite her along and YES I brought her with me that night, Caca. :)

See how many people likes it. :)

Call me lame or whatever but that was the first time I watch a football match with a very big crowd in the stadium and most them are male ! Woohoo ! What a great experience eh ? :)

Walked to the field. XD

Lineup, taking pictures. :)

First half just about to start.

Penalty by Aaron Ramsey bring the first goal of Arsenal.

Finished ! Spot the no. 8 ! :D

Sorry but I don't have many pictures of them playing. Too excited and focus on the game. LOL. Well done Arsenal, 4-0. And also Harimau Malaya, I actually hope that they can break the score but luck wasn't with them. It's okay, at least there's few try from them. XD

Extra excitement. lol. I swear the one who wear the Malaysia's jersey is handsome and got a very nice body. lol.

Hiding the double chin ! :p

Me in the stadium ! XD Oh, sorry for the excited face of mine. =.=

Most of Malaysians wearing Red that night but supporting the Yellow. lol. :)

Back where we belong. Even though we love Arsenal but Malaysian Team always in our heart.

The final score. :)

Thanks MixFM again for the two free passes. Even it's only a Free Seating ticket but I'm satisfied enough. :)

p/s: why am I missing you now ?

I'm going to...

2011-07-12T19:39:00.005+08:00

graduate in September. InsyaAllah. :)

Salam all. :)

To be frank, I only cry twice for the results that I got which are when I was in Standard 6 and when I was in Form 3 -- I don't even cry for my C5 Biology in SPM (don't ask me why). But last night I just couldn't help myself crying for the results that I got for my Industrial Training. I feel like my past 2 months in MOF went for nothing. It's not that I'm not grateful. I am grateful for the results that I got since it doesn't disturb my current CGPA. But please, I'm the only one who get a B+ ? Okay speechless. I came early to work (as early as 7.40am), I get back from work after 5pm, I submitted my report earlier than my other friends, I've made corrections for my log book just like she wanted me to do and I do everything that needed ! I don't know where have I done wrong. Maybe my report ? I just don't know. Maybe I'm not deserve to get an A for my industrial training ? What a big mess in my head. I need an explanation for that but I have no guts to ask her. So, I decided to appeal for a re-check on my reports and all. Just hope that luck will be with me. Whatever I'm gonna get after this, I hope I will be satisfy, at least I fight for it and not just looking at it with 1001 questions in my head asking what are my mistakes. My frustration last night was beyond the frustration that I got last 3 years of being left. This is my future ! I've try so hard to take care of my reputation, my university's reputation in that 2 months and I only get a B+ for that ? Maybe you guys will think that the B+ is already good enough. Perhaps, yes. But that B+ come along with 6 units. I don't mind if it only takes 1, 2 or 3 unit but 6 units ? You don't know how much it will impact your CGPA. And one more thing, I don't want my future employer to see my transcript with a B+ for my Industrial Training. That will bring me a very bad luck in finding jobs. :( I never cry for my results since my first semester in UKM but this final semester seriously give me a bad headache. Just hope everything will be okay.

Whatever it is, with the results coming out last night, and with the Convocation's fees settled, I'm officially done with my Degree and going to graduate by the end of September. InsyaAllah. :)

Thanks for all the support everyone, especially my mum who accompany me this evening to settled everything in UKM, my family, my dear friends who called, tweet-ed, skype-ed and sms-ed me last night and also today. I was blessed to have you all in my life. Thank you so much. :)

p/s: pms mode !

Love is not necessarily to be together...

2011-07-11T01:47:00.008+08:00

...sometimes you just have to let it go.

Salam all. :)

Mum and big sister said that I'm getting lazier since I got back from my internship. Am I ? -.-

But if I look through all, yes I am lazy and being so procrastinate with everything. What to do with this eh ? Don't know why but I'm just too lazy to do anything at home. Urghh. It pissed me off sometimes, but I didn't do anything bout that at all. T_T HELP ME !

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Don't have to talk much, enough with these few words that describe everything I wanted to say.

Love can not blinded us but we always thought we are. You can be blinded by love but please don't be fool by love.
Parents or a lover ? You should already know which one should you choose. Parents know the best. Always.
The most precious treasures in this world are your parents, your siblings, your family. How good or bad they are, they always share the same blood with yours.
How one person can ruins your happiness.
Turn to Allah in everything, you'll feel much much better.

p/s: Got a lot to say but I don't know who to starts. :|

moon.

2011-07-09T01:00:00.001+08:00

Salam all. :)

I love to watch the moon and sometimes I talked to it. When the heart feels lonely, when the heart is in the state of anger or whenever the heart is struck by some good memories or moments. Looking at the moon, hoping that he/she will looking at it too, right ? :)

"Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon"

I keep listening to Talking to the Moon by Bruno Mars lately. Frankly, I don't really listen to his songs (that's explained why am I quite late listen to this song) not like the girls out there do. So, when I said I listen to his song this once, you should be proud of me. LOL. Seriously I just feel me in this song. Or maybe I am before. But I do love the tone, the music, the lyrics. Seriously I'm currently addicted to it.

"Dear Moon, don't let the morning comes, let the darkness keep surround, let it be lonely, just like me"

And the poem by Khalil Gibran, 'sepi', my favourite of all. Yes, I only know the poem when I watched 'sepi' but I just love the poem and I memorized each and every word of the poem. Believe me, I'm not the person who will memorize something that doesn't really meaningful to me. If I do, there's something in it. :)

"Mystery the moon, a hole in the sky, a supernatural night light"

Bella Luna by Jason Mraz also win my heart. Same as Bruno Mars I don't really listen to Mraz but this song is different. Well, this song is given by someone before and now it quite meaningless to me. But still, I keep listening to it.

How this moon's song/poem haunted me eh ? :p And how moon can allure me in many ways. Distract me when I walk, make me look at it through the car's window whenever I'm not driving. Haha. Some people would love the rainbow, but I prefer the moon. Just don't know why. The phase of the moon is just like the phase of human being. From zero to hero and from hero to zero. :) I actually got the point but quite lazy to elaborate more here. 2.40am already. How time flies and I don't realize I've typed more than an hour ! Shall stop now. Bye !

p/s: some people are just blinded by love till they don't know how to differentiate the positive and negative impacts of what they're doing.

Klana Resort.

2011-07-04T00:23:00.006+08:00

Salam all. :)

I spend my first week of being unemployed successfully as Mama's official driver last week. lol. Never mind, at least I'm out of the house for a while. Keh2.

My weekend is filled by Forum Generasi Muda at Klana Resort, Seremban. Well, we doesn't represent any organisation or agency, it is only me and my other friends want to spend our weekend there. (Sambil menyelam, minum air they said. :p) Even though we don't have much time to chat together, only listening to the forum, being emotional in the group discussion. But we enjoy the golden time together before we barely seen each other after this. How sad to say this. :(

There are 10 of us from UKM that personally came, 7 from IR (me, FaThirah, Shahir, Zulaika, Suraiza, Palie and Joann), 2 from FUU (Acap and Haris) and 1 from FST (Aifat). :)

Let the picture talk itself even if I don't have much of them. Hehe.

Here is the view from my room. 809, Klana Resort. :)

Glad that we got this room even if we need to climb up and down the stairs to go to the lobby. :)

Morning bell is reserved for this ! A newspaper by the way. Eheh. :)

Oh, it's Shabeery Chik. Ignore him, just read the backdrop. Keh2.

Second from right (with the curtain a lil bit open), that's our room ! :)

The girls (excluding Joann) at 8th ! :D

The roommates. :)

Oh, Tun M also coming for a Luncheon Talk with the youth. :)

That's Suhaimi Sulaiman in the middle (if you still remember him as the MHI host before and now he's with Astro Awani).

Joann as the panelist. :)

I don't know what have I got from this forum. LOL. Seriously I am.

I just hate how the youth at the forum trying to get an attention. Believe me, we got our own reason why we didn't get involved in any Belia's activity especially in their organisation.

1. They are too matured for their age. 24 but think like a 40. Oh, sorry but I'm so not into them. They're just so boring. zzzz.

2. They think that when they got a position as a President of any club,they are too good till it's hard for them to hear anyone's better than them. :@)

3. Talk much, less action. LOL !

4. THEY TALK RUBBISH AND PROUD OF IT. WELL, THEY GIVE AN IDEA THAT DON'T HAVE ANY BASIS, NO VALID SOURCES. CAN YOU PLEASE READ FIRST THEN ONLY YOU CAN SAY IT PROUDLY. YOU GOT THE IDEA BUT YOU DON'T HAVE THE PROOF.

Sorry, but I'm just being honest. I'm so not into them. (That's explained why I didn't make friend with any of them). LOL. Anyway, some of them are just great (when I said great that means they are brilliant with ideas and their knowledge is good as well) and nice. BUT most of them, sorry to say, I don't adore them at all.

All I got there was precious time with my friends. :) That's all !

p/s: We didn't get the chance to swim in the swimming pool.

Talking to the moon.

2011-06-29T03:13:00.000+08:00

Salam all. :)

Alhamdulillah, I finally submit my Industrial Training report on Monday. Meaning that I'm officially unemployed. Give me a month or two to rest please. Hehe. :) Even though I feel quite mad with Cik Marina's sudden decision to collect her supervisees' report on Monday, but otherwise, I'm so thankful to her for making me rapidly done my report and no need to think about it anymore. :D Oh, I feel so freeeee. XD

But still...I miss my routine for the last two months.

Waking up as early as 6.30am.

Sleeping as early as 10-11pm.

Having breakfast, lunch and dinner without fail.

Keep arguing with Azzam bout the pillows.

Sleep with the air conditioner till morning but usually I suddenly awake at 4-5am and then turn it off, turn on the fan. Can't bear the coldness.

Bought food from Pasar Malam Putrajaya for two every Tuesday.

Had a bath in the morning without using the water heater.

Ohh and so many more. 2 months went away just like that ! How time flies and in a week plus time we're going to Jakarta. I feel like only yesterday I booked the ticket and we haven't ready yet. =.=

p/s: YM-ing with Zarifah -- longing for updates ! :p

it's the final countdown !

2011-06-22T10:16:00.003+08:00

Salam all. :)

It's my final week and I just can't wait for it to be done. Weehoo !

Kak Iza: Ainaa, last bila dekat sini.
Me: Minggu ni last week.
Kak Iza: Ha'ah, minggu ni last week, minggu depan apa pula ?
Me: This week ! Haha.
Kak Iza: Haa, ni lah budak graduate.
Me: Hahaha !

Yeah, she got me ! haha. Supposed I'm saying that this is my FINAL week and not my LAST week. lol.

last Tuesday I went out with some of Fiscal's officers for a farewell of Puan Rosnita, my supervisor and also me. We're both having our final week here in MOF. Puan treat us for lunch at JM Bariani, Alamanda. Thanks Puan ! Having such a great moment with them. Brought my MJU1010 along and yeah we did take some picture together. :) Again, thanks Puan and all. :)

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Today's my last day here in Macro as well as MOF. I feel such a relief that I finally done with my Industrial Training and the most important thing...done with UKM thingy ! I'm freeeeee ! :)

But before that I need to finish up my LI report first. I've planned with FaThirah and Zarifah to submit it by this Wednesday and thinking of having some good time together after that. But then, Izzah told me that Cik Marina has emailed and asked us, her supervisees to submit it on Monday. Congratulations Cik Marina, you know how to ruined people's plans and moods. :|

Again..she misspell my email address and I didn't get the email. Thanks Izzah for forwarding it to me. Read the sentences that I've underlined. She wants to read the report in DETAIL. Come on. 6 units and if I'm not mistaken the grade will be counted in our CGPA. I know and I believe that my report won't be as good as she expected. She got her own standard of log book and I believe the report as well. :| Ohhh, I've calculated the CGPA if she didn't give me an A for LI. The lowest I should get is B+ because my CGPA won't be affected. If I got a B, then my CGPA will fall. For now, I only can pray to Allah that she won't do that to me and her other supervisees. And also, I hope I can do better in my report.

p/s: praying hard.

kata hati.

2011-06-19T02:47:00.001+08:00

Salam semua. :)

Hari ni nak berblog dalam Bahasa Melayu. Mungkin, lebih mudah untuk memperkatakan, lebih mudah untuk menginterpretasikan. :) Mereka kata, jangan pernah terlalu mudah memberikan cinta dan jangan pula terlalu payah memberi cinta. Bagaimana sebenarnya ? Cinta yang benar itu tidak perlu dicari, ia akan datang dengan sendirinya. Tapi masih juga tidak dapat membendung diri untuk sentiasa mencari yang terbaik kan, untuk memiliki hati sendiri ? Terkadang terlalu alpa sehingga tidak nampak bahawasanya dia sudah ada di depan mata. Terkadang terlalu yakin bahawa dialah orangnya. Siapa sebenarnya kita untuk lebih mengetahuinya ? :)

Lama rasanya tak berbicara mengenai hati. Mungkin tiada apa yang dapat diperkatakan mengenainya. Tiada sebarang perkembangan di hati, yang ada hanyalah kenangan lalu. Sejak akhir-akhir ini banyak bermimpi tentang dia. Ya, dia lagi. Pasti anda merasakan bahawa saya ada memikirkan tentang dia pada siang saya dan sebelum tidur saya. Jujurnya, langsung tiada. Saya juga tidak mengerti mengapa, bingung. Jika sekali, itu seperti kebiasaannya apabila tarikh-tarikh tertentu sudah dekat, tetapi tidak pula kali ini. Hampir selang dua hari dia muncul di dalam mimpi saya dan setiap mimpi itu adalah berbeza. Saya tidak mengerti mengapa, keliru. Apakah tandanya ini ? Barangkali Allah nak uji saya, keutuhan saya terhadap keputusan yang dibuat beberapa bulan lalu. Untuk lebih melegakan hati saya, saya sms dia dan bertanyakan khabarannya. Hanya itu dan tidak lebih. Menurunkan ego saya, tak mampu rasanya berdepan dengan persoalan di kala ini.

"Ikhwan, I've been dreaming about you lately. I don't have any idea why. Awak okay je kan ? I know it's been ages I didn't meet or contacting you. Sorry. Hope you're just doing great."

"Ok je"

Jawapan dia...hanya ringkas dan pendek. Terbit juga rasa kesal dan kecewa, tapi dipujuk hati dan mengabaikannya sebaik boleh. Tak perlu mengulas panjang, bertahun mengenalinya, begitulah fiilnya. :) Rasa sedikit lega bila dapat jawapannya, apa pun yang akan terjadi selepas ni, saya redha. Saya sudah cuba berkali-kali membetulkan keadaan yang rasanya agak kekok ini, tetapi dia masih tetap menegakkan egonya. Tidak mahu menuding jari. Sebelum menyalahkan sesiapa, kena lihat dan perbetulkan diri sendiri dahulu. :) Saya tidak nampak jalan penyelesaiannya di sini. Kita biarkan masa yang menentukannya...nanti.

p/s: bulan itu tidak menyinar seperti dulu lagi.

coming home. :)

2011-06-17T13:37:00.004+08:00

Salam all. :)

Finally I got the chance to open up my blog and online. Gosh ! So many updated entries and I haven't read any. Blame the broken monitor and I have to wait for few days before I get the new one. --" So, I am now in Macro Section. To be true, I'm not enjoying much here. It's not because of the staffs and officers (or probably it is ?) but the function of Macro itself. For me Macro is so much for the economic student and they're focusing more on the domestic. Wait, domestic ? Yes and I am an international relations student. Does it really make sense ? Not really. =.= I'm quite blur and really don't feel me in this section. I love the Level 8 sections more, International and Fiscal. :) The officers here in Macro are nice and kind to me but they are quite matured I guess that makes me feel uncomfortable a bit. Don't worry, praise to Allah for giving me an ability to easily get along with people. I'm just okay to be around them. :)

Yesterday my supervisor from the university came, Cik Marina she is. My heart beat quite fast while waiting for her since she's quite 'skema' in giving marks (as I heard 2 of my classmates has failed in her subject). I'm just about to call her when she suddenly called me and said that she's already in MOF's south block. I quickly went to downstairs and invite her to came along with me. Alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly and I would to thank Puan Kupp so much for all the compliments. :)

"She's a pleasant girl and she's always smiling to everyone." -Puan Kupp

She keep saying that to Cik Marina yesterday. And I guess Cik Marina also satisfied with everything ? Hehe. I hope so. :) Only about my English and log book that being the issues yesterday. hehe. Other than that, Puan Kupp helps me a lot ! Thank you so much Puan Kupp ! And also Cik Marina, thank you for coming. Just hope you won't be too harsh in giving marks for our LI. huhu.

A week left for my LI to end. Seriously I can't wait for that. I can just lazing around at home while hunting for jobs. I can eat mama's cook everyday and all. Ohhhhhh my home sweet home. :) How good to be home finally after almost 7 years I have to stay in the hostel (starting I was in form 4) and only come back for a while. Heee.

DEAR ALL, I'M COMING HOME NEXT WEEK. :)

p/s: JPA already banked in the money in my UKM student account.

results.

2011-06-07T15:31:00.005+08:00

Salam all. :)

Results supposed to be coming out tomorrow on 8th of June. But as usual, me and FaThirah will find out it first by sms. LOL. We already knew our results yesterday evening. XD The results wasn't that good but wasn't that bad too. Just so-so and the most important thing is that I've passed. Only this LI thingy left then I'm done with my first degree. Hee. InshaAllah. :)

Million thanks to my supervisor for the thesis. I don't expect much but a B+ already made my day. Thank you Dr for all the assistance and advices. I really appreciate everything and happy to be under your supervision. I'm one of the luckiest student to be chosen by you. :)

Also million thanks to my 4 semester lecturer for giving me an A- for my French level 4. Thinking of taking Delf. But, hold on first. Wait until I got my own salary then I'll pay for that test. Why should I waste my 4 semesters learning French isn't it ? :)

And others, alhamdulillah... :) Want to know my full result since first semester ? Don't you ever think of that ! I'm not gonna tell. haha. Already enough if I tell you that it's above 3 and below 3.5. :p

So...these are all the subjects I'd learn throughout my 6 semesters:

Ko-kurikulum

- Rekreasi Luar I

- Rekreasi Luar II

- Kursus Pengurusan Persatuan I

- Kursus Pengurusan Persatuan II

Pilihan Bebas (elektif)

- Bahasa Perancis Asas I

- Bahasa Perancis Asas II

- Bahasa Perancis Pertengahan I

- Bahasa Perancis Pertengahan II

- Bahasa Isyarat

- Fotografi

Wajib Major

- Pendekatan Hubungan Antarabangsa

- Pengantar Pengajian Strategi

- Teori dan Konsep Hubungan Antarabangsa

- Organisasi Antarabangsa

- Diplomasi dan Dasar Luar

- Pengantar Politik Ekonomi Antarabangsa

- Perbandingan Regionalisme

- Isu Keselamatan Antarabangsa bukan Tradisional

- Keselamatan dan Dasar Luar Malaysia

- Pengajian Konflik Antarabangsa

- Politik Ekonomi Antarabangsa Asia Pasifik

- Kuasa-kuasa Besar Asia Pasifik

- Dasar Luar Negara Asia Tenggara

- Undang-undang Antarabangsa dan Politik Dunia

- Alam Sekitar dan Hubungan Antarabangsa

Wajib Pusat

- Evolusi Politik Malaysia

- Evolusi Pemikiran Falsafah

- Kedinamikan Sistem Antarabangsa

Wajib Fakulti

- Teknologi Maklumat untuk Sains Sosial

- Ketrampilan Berbahasa dan Berkomunikasi

- Pengantar Sains Sosial

- Bahasa Inggeris untuk Sains Sosial

- Metodologi Penyelidikan

- Pengantar Falsafah

- Latihan Ilmiah (Tesis)

Wajib Universiti

- Tamadun Islam dan Tamadun Asia

- Hubungan Etnik

- Latihan Industri

Wajib Universiti (Liberal)

- Kritikan Seni Tampak

- Kepimpinan dan Kemahiran Interpersonal

Thank you for all the lecturers for teaching me. :)

p/s: Different people, different perspective.

tummy.

2011-06-07T08:39:00.004+08:00

Salam all. :)

This is the third week I am here in Fiscal and I've started my week with a pettish tummy. :( Been walked up and down to the toilet for few times yesterday. Not even yesterday but the day before, it already started. Diarrhea and few times feel like puking. T_T Thought that today the tummy will behave nicely but still when I woke up this morning, I got diarrhea again. I don't know what is wrong with her. :| Be nice to me please, my "bunch" tummy.

Last week as my second week in fiscal, the PTDs treat me for lunch again, but this time around we had steamboat at Johnny's. :) Thanks a bunch Puan Zurliza, Puan Izarydah, Puan Muazlinda, Puan Dayana, Cik Faung and Cik Syikin. Auwhhh.

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When I arrived home from work yesterday, Azzam was crying out loud, he refused to get bath. =.= To please him and make him stop crying, he asked me to bath him. Well that my first time bath a baby boy. Quite awkward but I have to. To hear him crying, I'm gonna get migraine because he's not crying but SCREAMING. Is that what you want to hear when you come back from work ? HELL NO. Ohh Azzam...

p/s: Shahir met himself in future: En. Fareeedzal. ! HAHA.

randomly typed.

2011-06-02T08:18:00.003+08:00

Salam all. :)

Ohh, it's June already. How time flies. I feel like only yesterday I walked out from UKM, checking out from Za'ba and bring back all my things home. Phewhhh. June means, I already been in MOF for a month. Weehee. 22 days left minus another 3 weekends (6 days), so, it's only 16 days left before I'm done with my internship ! Muehehe. :)

Since I got no work to do these few days, I've decided to do some job hunt. There's few I've applied. Hopefully I'm gonna get shortlisted, insyaAllah, Amin. No high expectations, just apply as much as I could. :)

Nothing much to tell here since my days as an industrial trainee makes my life quite unbounded. LOL. My working days are filled by 9 hours of staying in the office, back home watching tv until 10pm or 11pm, then I'm off to sleep. No hanging out with friends, no staying up late in the night and not even online while I'm at home. It's not that there's no internet at my cousin's house. Only that I have no mood to open up my Mr. Asus. Sometimes I do feel that there's no need for me to bring Mr. Asus to Bangi because I only open it up in weekend which is when I'm in Selayang. Haha. =.= But still, I'm taking him to bangi. Cehhh. Same goes to my GoGear Vibe which I only use it in the car, there's no more lullaby before I sleep as at 9pm I already keep yawning. Just lying on the bed and that's it, bye world, I'm in la la land already. LOL. I'm having difficulties to sleep before. Alhamdulillah now I am not ! :)

p/s: I change my Twitter setting to HTTPS. Damn it. Now my old pc can't load it. How am I gonna entertain self ? :(

random.

2011-05-31T14:06:00.003+08:00

Salam all. :)

I spend my morning today with "Captain of the Universe". :) I first found her blog last year (if I'm not mistaken), don't really remember when and how. But I do amused by the comics she made through her experiences. lol. My favorite ? This. All this while I only be her silent reader and today I finally follow her blog. :) Sorry but hard for me to follow other's blog. It's only because I don't want to messing up my dashboard with all new entries that I myself don't have time to read them. haha. I'll feel guilt if I don't. (mental crisis) :p

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Today's been so plain, so slow and so bored. I come to the office for nothing. I've wasted my 9 hours without doing anything (I don't think I'm gonna get any work until 5pm). Haihh~ Give me any work please. It's my pleasure to do them all (for now, instead of looking at the pc, twitter-ing and blogging). :/ Screw that ! I'm going to Pasar Malam after work. Hunting for fooooooood. Hehe. :)

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Hoping that I'm not going anywhere this weekend (unless my Anaconda didn't follow her mum to Kuantan. hehe). It's been so many times she asked to meet her up but each time, I already got plans to do. Sorry. :( I'll make myself free this few weekends okay ? hehehe.

p/s: results ? I'm scared. :(

sooner or later.

2011-05-27T07:59:00.004+08:00

Salam all. :)

A fresh entry in the morning. I already in MOF as early as 7.35am to dodge the congestion in Presint 2. Blame the "Himpunan Sejuta Belia" for blocking my way and parking for the event this weekend. :( Ohh, despite that stupid blocking road, I wanna promote the event. LOL. I've been here looking at the progress everyday and I'm really sure that the event is going to be a nice place you wanna spend your weekend with. But not for me as I'm going back to Penang this evening. Hehe. What a disappointment, right ? But it's okay. I prefer Penang more. Hehe. :p

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Last night, I dream of him again and I'm not sure why he appeared. :S He asked me in the dreams, "Tell me that we're not stranger. Don't do this to me." as I passed him by without greet him any. What a strange dream I had as he will never talk that much with me. LOL. Well, it just a dream. It makes me smile in the dream, but it hurts me instead once I woke up from my sleep. :|

Tweeted bout it this morning and see what I got.

Strongly agree with Qilah. :)

Haha. Stupid Loco ! and Ard, I actually pretty agree with her. Hmmm.

I hope this is the last time. I'm not searching for anyone now. I'm comfortable this way without any commitment I have to give. But who knows what has Allah sets for me. The prince will come at any time, sooner or later, he will still there for me, InshaAllah. :)

p/s: The booth of Sasuke quite interesting. Haha.

Outstanding balance.

2011-05-26T08:19:00.004+08:00

Salam all. :)

Do you know how does it feels when you get back from work, then your adorable little nephew smile at you once you open the door and keep calling your name ? I feel like all the tiredness are gone all of sudden. :) "Ty ! Ty ! Ty ! Je ! Je ! Je !" (notes: Aunty = Ty, Anje = Je)

Ohh, you're so cute Ahmad Azzam Darwisy ! :)

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Previous Thursday, I paid my university fees via CIMBClicks. Then I asked Bendahari whether I need to submit the transaction slip to UKM, they said, no need. I wonder how will they know that I am the one who paid since my student account hasn't clear yet until yesterday. Worried, yes ! Ohhh my money. -.- But today, I feel such a relief when the account already cleared. Hehehe. No debt ! (Seriously I don't feel so good to see any outstanding balance in my student account.)

RM0.00 !

I met Izzah, Shahir and Raudhah at Pizza Hut last Monday since Shahir wants to take his precious thesis from me. Pizza ? Yes, I'm CRAVING ! Hehe. While waiting for my pizza, they told me that JPA will cover the LI fees. And I was like, what ?! Why Bendahari didn't announce it at e-pelajar what-so-ever. They only stick a notice at Bendahari's counter in UKM ? What do you expect with that ? Huh ! Especially for us who are now having our Industrial Training at different places and not in UKM. Zzzzzz~ If JPA also pay the fees, meaning that, I've overpaid my fees ! After few days, then I realize something, it's okay if we overpaid because we have to pay for our Convo's fee later on. Phewhhh. :)

p/s: going back to Penang this weekend. :D

Fiscal ?

2011-05-24T15:46:00.003+08:00

Salam all. :)

My second day in Fiscal and Finance Sector went not so well. Feelings ? I like International more (maybe because it's my first week and I still didn't get used the environment). -.-" Seriously, I don't know who's my supervisor. HAHA. But I think the Catherine-alike is the one. LOL. Don't mind, don't care. As well as she doesn't shout at me as she did to others, I'm okay with it. :p

**updated: turn out that my supervisor is not the catherine-alike but someone more understanding and soft. :)

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Got an email from Cik Marina, forwarded by Bintang Malam actually as Cik Marina misspell my email, so, I don't get the email. It's okay it's okay. Thank you Izzah for forwarding it and informed me about it. She's my supervisor for my Industrial Training (from the university). Meaning that, she's the one who will come and "visit" me at MOF and evaluate me. Zzzz~ Just hope that everything's going to be fine. :)

p/s: Suddenly feel like wanna drink Starbucks. Zzz~

Friday.

2011-05-20T08:16:00.003+08:00

Salam all. :)

Today's the last day I am here in International & Services Sector. Mixed feelings. :S Yesterday the PTDs treat me for lunch at Alamanda. Thanks y'alls. :) Had a great afternoon with everyone, Cik Waheeda (the boss), Cik Elanee, Cik Mashitoh and En. Syed (I call them kakak only and Syed as Syed). Hee.

And today is Friday ! F.I.N.A.L.L.Y. Weeheeeeee~ Home home home home home ! HAHA. Will going back home after Maghrib, InsyaAllah. Then tomorrow my friends and I are going to attend our seniors' wedding at Putrajaya and planning to go to Citrawarna 2011. XD Hope the plan goes well. Amin. :)

p/s: Eat Eclipse Mints all alone is boring without sharing it with classmates. :(

2 months only.

2011-05-18T16:02:00.003+08:00

Salam all. :)

As everybody knows, I already starts my industrial training since 2nd of May. Quite nervous on my first day since I'm the only one from UKM that used to do my intern here this two months. :S But other than that, everything's went well. Alhamdulillah. :)

I'm going to have 3 supervisors since I'm going to work under 3 sectors of International Economy Division; 3 weeks in International & Services, 3 weeks in Fiscal & Finance and 2 weeks in Macro. Phewhhh. Quite tough actually. I already can mingle with the staffs and officers in International & Services but then I have to go through another awkward moment with the staffs and officers in Fiscal and Finance. Same goes to Macro later. :( Huh~

This week is my last week in International & Services. Wow ! How time flies huh ? Three weeks already I am here, meaning that, there's another five weeks remaining for my industrial training. And today I finally got my own temporary security pass. Hehehe. With my face and name on it. XD Ohh, Kak Waheeda (my boss) is planning to treat me for tomorrow's lunch . Weehee. Thank you for being nice to me this few weeks. :)

p/s: Two months aren't enough to do industrial training. We need at least 3-4 months !

Thesis: submitted !

2011-05-18T12:09:00.002+08:00

Salam all. :)

I'm back from Wesak Public Holiday. Didn't go anywhere yesterday, not even going back to Selayang. Just staying at my cousin's house, need to teach my niece on Bahasa Melayu (and all) since she got mid-year exam starting today. Phewhhh. Hopefully she did well than before. Amin.

Well guys, I know that it's kinda late to tell but I finally finish my thesis right before my industrial training starts (It's two weeks ago). hehehe. Seriously I feel so relieved eventhough the content wasn't that good and I'm not really satisfied with it. I submitted it on the first day of my industrial training. :) Alhamdulillah. Thank you Dr.Kuik for everything.

p/s: Stop complaining !

3 years journey.

2011-05-16T09:57:00.003+08:00

Salam all. :)

It's been two weeks since my last day in UKM. Seriously I miss every single moments in that place. 3 years and lots of thing happened. From the saddest to the happiest thing, each of them I remember clearly. I've started my journey in UKM with most tragic moment in my life (for now). Being left and you know how hard I am handling that. And also, the loss of my beloved Tok in November 2008. Not a good year for me, indeed. Then in 2011, I left UKM with very beautiful memories I ever had. :) Alhamdulillah.

"If you only knew what the future holds, after a hurricane comes a rainbow."

Thanks for everything my three years (and still counting) friends. You guys coloured my black and white life very nice and beautifully. InsyaAllah I will never forget you guys. :) I think we already knew when and where we gonna have our class reunion ? LOL. (note: epaliepa. ;p)

My last week in UKM was actually quite tense since I have to complete my thesis. However, I still manage to have a day-out with my BFFs in UKM. :) Fulfilling Zura's wish to bring her to Low Yat Plaza to buy her graduation gift - Nikon 3100. :) That was the last time before we're going to spend our days and nights together in Jakarta this becoming July. Hee. I seriously can't wait for that. Hoping that there's nothing happen in between that obstruct me from going, insyaAllah.

p/s: love them to bits.

quick update.

2011-05-15T18:51:00.002+08:00

Salam all. :)

Seems like I can't update this week. If you remember clearly, last Thursday the rain fell heavily in Klang Port area, to that, the modem got strike by the lightning and it cannot be use. :( Quite frustrated that I can't online this weekend since it's the only time I can surf the internet this two months. Haih~ It's okay then I'll try to update a.s.a.p. Maybe during lunch hour tomorrow. My supervisor is on leave tomorrow. HOYEAH. :p

p/s: 5days in Bangi, 2 days in Selayang for 8 weeks straight.

quick update.

2011-05-10T10:35:00.004+08:00

Salam all. :)

I'm in the office by the way. lol. Just trying since no one's here except me. Everyone's busy with the Budget 2012 Consultations by our PM at the Ground Floor. :) Ohh, please don't say that I don't have jobs. I just done with the registrations. So, I come up here because I got nothing else to do downstairs. :)

p/s: praying that I'll work here someday. :)

quick update.

2011-05-08T19:16:00.002+08:00

Salam all. :)

Haven't update my blog since 23rd April if I'm not mistaken. Promise you next weekend I'll update bout things happened to me this few weeks. Been busy now, sleep early at night and have to wake up early to go to work. -.-" I miss my old life. And I really really miss all my friends in UKM. :(

Now that I know how work's life looks like. As you already know I'm staying at my cousin's house in Bangi and didn't online whenever I am there. I will only be online on weekend as I'll be in Selayang. :) Take care everyone.

p/s: the awkward moment is when my bestfriends become a lover. We know it could happen but the awkwardness still occur. lol. Whatever it is, we're happy for you guys ! :) :) :)

only if..

2011-04-27T20:14:00.004+08:00

Salam all. :)

Well, that smiley face should be like this " :( ". Morale down.

Only if you do understand that I am not here for fun and I put all my time here to do my thesis.

How I want so bad to be at home at this time since I have to stay in Bangi for another 2 months. :(

I know I've took so much time on my thesis. It ain't easy. We don't simply get the data by a project, staying in the lab, see/do the progress. We don't simply get the data by doing some surveys. We need to analyze the articles, lots of articles which you can't even imagine that it's too much for you to read. Hmm~

Give me strength ya Allah. Really hope I can finish it by Friday. Amin. Then I'm coming home.

p/s: I'm still working on it. Done with all the chapters but need to edit some. =.=

3years.

2011-04-27T00:36:00.003+08:00

Salam all. :)

3 years and please don't break it. Accept everything as you can never got someone who is perfectly suits your mood and all. Everyone got their own behaviour that you can't do anything. Because you are too. We're just the same are we ? You don't like this and that at me. And I too, don't like you this and that. LOL. We will never get enough aren't we ? Just let everything go and we will be fine. :) That's what a friend should be...accept all the weakness, pleasure all the kindness. I love my friends. Sorry if I ever being mad at you. :(

p/s: be nice, don't get mad. :)

number 31.

2011-04-26T07:51:00.002+08:00

Salam all. :)

I think you should read the #100factsaboutme again. To be precise, number 31. Then you'll understand. Seriously I am. But you're lucky enough that I've been so patient that I didn't say anything bad to you. I just let it be. That give me a lesson to not make any plan anymore with you. If you wanna do it, then you just asked me. But if you don't wanna do it or half-heartedly wanna do it whenever I asked you, TELL ME EARLIER. I won't feel this bad. You just spoiled my day, ohh, my morning ! Hmmm ! Thank you very much to you and you. I didn't sleep just to make sure I didn't overslept. Seems like that it's useless ? Ohh sorry that I've being so mad.

Since we didn't make it today, so I'm gonna spend the whole day with my thesis and chase after the dateline tomorrow noon.

p/s: I'm sorry that I have to canceled it due to few reasons.

Dear all. :)

2011-04-26T01:40:00.005+08:00

Salam all. :)

Dear heart, stop trying to think about unnecessary feelings. Please fall in love with the thesis, I'm begging you. We just have to focus on this for this week only then we are free.

Dear hands, please stop clicking on the social networking site. We need to concentrate typing in the Microsoft Word, so that we can finish on time.

Dear eyes, sleepy no more please. We only have to get through these sleepless nights until it is time. I'm going to pamper you after we're done on this.

Dear nose, please be nice to me. Keep sneezing since yesterday and I'm tired. Mucus, this is not the right time for you to come out.

Dear body, we sleep when we done on this. We're going to rest soon. I'm sorry that I hurt you so much. 35% left. You know how much I love you. I'm trying my best to finish it as soon as possible.

Dear mind, let's think out of box and do it right. We need to speed up and catch the dateline.

Dear all, let's do this together. I love you all. :)

p/s: I'm sick ! =.=

new matric card.

2011-04-25T16:28:00.002+08:00

Salam all. :)

I just realize that my matric card has been misplaced. Already search it in the car, bag and all but I couldn't find it. :( I think I should just let it be since we almost finish the semester but then I think I might used it to borrow some book from the library and all. So, I decided to go to Wisma Aman. Unfortunately we have to do a police report before I can apply for a new card. zzz~ So off I go with FaThirah to the police station. Just a personal views: I think all the policemen should take a computer lessons or just hire a clerk to type the report. Actually the report can be done in few minutes but seeing the policeman type very slowly makes it done in almost half an hour. -.-" Grrrr ! Done with report, I quickly go to the Wisma Aman again and it only takes few minutes to fill the application form and print the card. I wasted my time at the police station and need to pay RM15 for the new card. Don't care it all, the most important thing is that I got a new card with the same picture. :)

p/s: sneezing since yesterday. :(

spell my name.

2011-04-24T02:54:00.002+08:00

Salam all. :)

I love and very like it when people called me with my full name. :)

But I really turned off when people wrongly spell my name like this -- Aina Amira. =.=

It's double A there~

Usually I just let it, but sometimes I feel so annoyed. It's okay for the one who just meet me. But it's so not cool when you already know me for few years and still spell my name like that. zzz~

p/s: Love me, love me not.

Exam: done !

2011-04-23T01:10:00.002+08:00

Salam all. :)

Supposed that I'm updating my blog yesterday but since we got a "plan" yesterday, so I postponed it until today. Thus, yesterday was the last paper for all the 6 semesters. Meaning that, only two tasks left to completing all that needed to graduate: the thesis that has been scheduled to be submit by 29th of April and two months of internship. Hip hip hooray ! :) Hopefully I can finish my thesis on time, insyaAllah. :)

Just met my SV this morning and guess what..he asked me and Ika to submit our full draft on 27th of April. Well, I'm just about to start my chapter 4. T_T Go go Ainaa !

p/s: 3 days left.

scenery.

2011-04-20T16:11:00.004+08:00

Salam all. :)

One thing that I really really love about my room in Za'ba which I already be here for almost three years is that it got a beautiful scenery when you look out of the window. :)

Maybe for you it's just plain scenery but for me the view is really calming.

I'll take a look outside whenever I feel quite tense with works. :)

Dark outside, by the time I posted this, it's raining heavily outside and the sound of thunder makes me feel so scared. It's too loud and so scary.

Stairways to ~~heaven~~ Engineering Faculty.

p/s: Shutting down the lappy in few seconds. It's too dangerous to still on the lappy. bye !

aini ainaa.

2011-04-19T22:04:00.005+08:00

Salam all. :)

Just about to start my revision on Foreign Policy but then distracted by Baby N. Heheh ! Sorry notes, I'll read you after this. :p My roommate currently struggling for her paper tomorrow morning but then I dragged her to take some photo with me since I think I don't have many picture with her in this three years. -.-" So here it goes. :p

Presenting my roommate. :)

I never post her picture in my blog if I'm not mistaken, right ?

And another picture. haha.

Oh, her name is Aini and I am Ainaa. :)

And she's all alone. haha.

We both are Selangorian and our blanket's colour coincidentally same as the Selangor flag's colour, red and yellow ! hehehe. :)

Enough for now, notes are waiting for me. :p

p/s: the feelings of three years sharing a room is totally different with three years being in the same class.

old pictures.

2011-04-19T17:36:00.005+08:00

Salam all. :)

Looking into folder by folder in "snappingzone". See what have I found. :)

This is Ayong at the age of...6 ?

Angah at the age of...6 ?

Ayang at the age of 5.

Me at the age of 5.

Don't have my younger sister's picture, didn't scan it. lol. Everyone was with long face and Angah & Ayang look so chubby ! haha.

Last but not least...

I think this picture is taken in 1996. lol. So smutty !

p/s: Bragged that you have this and that, but in fact, you got nothing. Stop showing off you jerk !

two down !

2011-04-18T16:29:00.006+08:00

Salam all. :)

Done for the International Law paper. Alhamdulillah. Thought that I'm going to stay in the exam hall until it's time but I'm NOT. lol. Already finished answer all questions in less than an hour. Bahaha. I think less than 10 of my classmates that stayed in the hall. lol. Take note, the questions aren't that easy. Eheh. :) I'm not expecting anything. An "A" ? Nah ! I know I'm not so good in IL. So, just wait and see.

Mama called just now telling me that Kak Sita called her and asked when will I come and stay at her house. So people, it's confirm. I'm going to stay at Bangi Perdana for two months for my internship. Kak Sita said that Anne (my niece) keep asking when will Auntie Anje's (or Kak Anje ?) coming. lol. :p

TWO down, ONE to go !

p/s: Let's sleep then struggle for Azizan ! hoooyeah !

second last exam.

2011-04-17T23:21:00.003+08:00

Salam all. :)

I'm so nervous to take my exam tomorrow. Ya Allah, I only use the notes that FaThirah gave to me as a guide of what should I read for the exam. I didn't attend the last class since I got an appointment with ENT specialist at that time. Never knew that it was the last class. If not I already asked the doctor to postponed the appointment. :( Whatever it is, I need to put so much strength in myself and believe that I can do it. Yes, I can do it. InsyaAllah. Wish me best of luck.

p/s: I'm sorry but I can't be like I am before when I'm with you.

Malam Gala PESEPSI 2011.

2011-04-17T13:36:00.006+08:00

Salam all. :)

Few days I don't have a chance to online. ONLY NOW the UKM-JARING can be access. Grrr ! Screw that. So, last night we got Malam Gala PESEPSI. Rating 4/10 for the event but 10/10 for photography session with classmates. LOL. :)

#1 the sequels of saranghae. :)

Epa + Palie. :)

A lil bit blur, sorry !

Loco + YenSin. :)

How cute. :p :p

Palie + YenSin.

This is the first saranghae picture actually. lol.

#2 Class picture.

All that attended. Only 13 of us, but never mind..we still have fun ! :)

From left: Sue, SiewTeng, YenSin, Palie, Thirah, Ika, Loco, Me, Epa, Asma' and Nisa.

(not in the picture: K.Fizah & Azizah)

10 girls + 1 woman. :p

At back, from left: K.Fizah, Azizah, Nisa, Asma', Sue & Ika.

At front, from left: SiewTeng, YenSin, Me, Thirah & Epa.

#3 Karaoke session.

Loco with his Alleycats. LOL. :p

(I didn't karaoke this year. lol.)

#4 random pics. :p

What distracted them anyway ?

THIS:

Mat Ariff lifted Loco to catch a hamper that is thrown by Abang King. :)

Bestfriends in UKM. :)

Zura didn't attend the dinner since she still haven't finish her thesis that have to be submit by next week. phewhhh.

Last year with Loco. :)

This year with Loco. :)

Last but not least, with Abe. :)

I didn't dressed up much last night since I didn't bring any nice clothes to wear for the night. Plus, the theme is "signature style". So, this is me. :) Having fun with my classmates that attend the dinner. Thanks for the new PESEPSI EXCO's for organizing this dinner even it's quite too late and quite too simple. AT LEAST we have our last dinner to be remembered. Thank you. :)

To all my classmates, I really, really love you all. :)

p/s: Let's struggle for Marina !

songs. :)

2011-04-13T00:57:00.005+08:00

Salam all. :)

Ever had an experience(s) of doing something and the song currently played exactly explain what you're doing or explaining something interrelated ?

I've experience it for so many times. :)

Suddenly he appeared in my mind and coincidentally "Better in Time" came out on my WMP. lol. That tell me that I should erase it from my mind quickly ! :)

I ate Maggi Assam Laksa just now ! Well, I can't remember when was the last time I eat it. lol. Eating all alone at my desk and "Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely" came out on my GoGearVibe. Grrr ! I'm a loner huh~ Put that big "L" on my forehead. zzzz~

I can't recall the others. The notification of "Ainaa, do your French take home test now please" keep appear in my mind. zzz. Off I go and have some fun with French !

p/s: "sometimes" will be ok but regularly, you already getting on my nerves.